"MOM!!!" I haven't felt like crying out that name for a long time, but now I feel like a child that needs to be set down for nap. Since Wednesday, I have been so irritable and short tempered with people. It all started when I walked into my college advisor's office and she immediately assumed that I was there to talk to her about my anxiety (which deals with loss of appetite and nausia). She said to me right away that I looked thinner than ever, which is not a complement since she's been trying to direct me to the same sort of help her anorexic naughter receives. I know she cares about me, but that wasn't what I wanted to hear. I just needed to borrow a book.
Anyway, since then I have had other moments of quick temper like: annoyance with the phone ringing back to back at work, the guy forgetting to put my cheeseburger on the grill in the cafeteria, and a girl who made me step aside at the xerox machine b/c she said she needed to copy something for a professor who was about to get on a plane (yeah, right!). Sometimes I think people go out of their way to make someone elses life harder. (That's ridiculous). Or I really feel offended if I think a person is lying to me (like the last girl). Passifier please!
Posts: 104 | Location: California | Registered: July 08, 2004
You are not alone. I have become the same way and it seems to be getting worse. I just started the program yesterday so I have no advice, except to hang in there and it will get better. If I did not believe that I would not be on here.
Posts: 2 | Location: NE | Registered: February 17, 2005
me too, gets worse around my period (up to a week before) and during it. I am mad at the world, and want strangle someone, but just feelings. I was home alone today, so I let out a big scream out of frustration (helps sometimes) and makes em laugh at myself.
Posts: 291 | Location: new york | Registered: April 28, 2004
Lena, I can relate. I used to get angry about everything little thing and at everyone.
I have tried to control it throughout the years. I was doing quiet good in the program, but this Thanksgiving I had my period and watch out I was so sensitive to everything. I think I probably ruined it for everyone. There wasn’t anything that a single person said that I felt good about, like you, I felt they were all out to get me or make me miserable.
Ironically this week was the beginning of my anger session in the program. While I realized that I definitely needed the time out that Lucinda speaks about, my family does not understand why I want to leave especially when issues are unresolved. I had a talk with them that I needed a cooling out period then we could talk about what was bothering me in a more rational manner.
I started also to analyze why the comments they said made me feel angry. I know they were joking around and do not intentionally want to hurt me, I know they love me, and it is their way of being playful and expressing their opinions. I realized while I did not care for the words being said, there was something else really bothering me. I was angry with myself about something that happened to me a few days before and I could not get over it and I think I took it out on others when the slightest thing offended me. I started to look at situations that bothered me and tried to answer, what is it that I want to accomplish by yelling, my answer is to not happen again, let them know that what they said is hurtful. So I did just that, what you said hurt me, then the remaining time was more pleasant.
I don’t know if this helps, but try to look at it from their point of view, this person you went to see for a different reason, they must have been concerned for you, though not the reception you wanted, they at least seemed to want to help you. Try to figure out if that is really what is bothering you or if that is just something that got you riled up.
Also, choose to have a good day, give yourself those positive affirmations, I know they help me a lot.
Hi,I know exactly how you feel.I just started the program so no advise from me.All I know is that I am pulling away from all my friends.I feel they don't respect me or treat me the way I treat them.I am trying not to let them bother me but it is very hard.I know I am a very sensitive person and my feelings are hurt very quickly.So I find it hard to understand how other people just sluff things off.Don't they have feelings.Sure wish I can feel that way.