I thought I was on my way to controlling mood swings better, but I had two temper flares this week. They occurred and disappeared pretty quickly, but sometimes the long term effects last longer.
The first flare was when my lunch was stolen. I became very angry and used a very strong tone of voice. Fortunately, I calmed down pretty quickly and the people involved just teased me about it later. I was able to let it go -and tease myself.
Then, yesterday, I got really competitive during a game and THOUGHT I was joking around when I told a friend she was being mean about blocking a move I had and didn't she know how many points I had. It didn't come out as joking and I admit I did feel perturbed/ angry at the time I made the comment. I really, really hurt her feelings and made her feel bad over a stupid game. I apologized immediately and later privately asked her forgiveness. She didn't SAY she forgave me, but I didn't feel she was going to hold a grudge either. I am definitely having trouble letting it go and forgiving myself- I still feel like I need to make amends. Just feels like a giant step backward on the day I finished the program!

I know how you feel about amends.

I have such trouble with myself when the other person DOES NOT FORGIVE ME - for something, I feel, I've done wrong.

It can last for years. Even if the grudge and the feelings are DISOLVED...i still feel guilty and stupid and ashamed most of the time when I think of the past grudges.

But you are green. The programs lessons will still take time to sink in.
The important thing is that you payed attention to how you felt, and you tried to fix the problem RIGHT when you realized there was one.

Good luck to you.

I'm on Lesson 7. I've hit a slump. I get lazy. and sometimes i make exuceses not to put more time into the program.