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Funguy,
this a good topic for me right now.
Recently i've been working on my resentments with god.
i'm working through it by doing a 4th step inventory, don't know if your familiar with AA but it's from their big book. i'm in alanon and we often also refer to the big book.
anyways what you do is write down a list of who you are holding resentments against. In this case for me it's god.
Then you write down the cause...
He took my brother.
He made me this way; i'm not smart enough, i have mental illness, i'm not talented enough.
He made the world this way; war, terrorism, poverty, starvation, disease.
Then you write down how these cause effect you.
My brother dieing in a car accident took away my sense of security in the world, it turned my world at 15 upside down. It left me frightened and lost.
Me not being smart enough, having the mental illness, and not being talented enough all are about my self esteem and my ambitions. These are self-seeking motivations. The mental illness also effects my sense of security.
War, poverty, starvation, disease and terrorism all effect my sense of security in this world. Again, without feeling secure I feel frightened and angry. Angry especially when i can't do anything about it which causes hopelessness and depression.
Now i'm at the part where i need to let this go. it does nothing for me to hold on to this but create a rift inside of me and with my higher power.
That's where I am now. Turning it over.
 
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I've been dealing with the same problem. I'm angry that I have some crazy neuromuscular problem that makes everyday things hard. I don't get why my screwed-up older bro and sis are perfectly healthy while I'm not. I'm not an alcoholic or a crack-head, etc. However, I know this isn't logical or productive, but it is how I feel at least once a day.

I did read When Bad Things Happen to Good People and it helped me understand some.


"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"- Eleanor Roosevelt
 
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My brother was perfectly at peace when he died at 15 with God and I wish I could say the same. What really bothers me is little kids dying of cancer but adults survive it even when they are old or have led immoral lives. We just watched this tv show where a porn star had leukemia and half her chest was covered in tumors and she's in remission now! My mom says its because they are ready to go to heaven (haven't been saved, etc.) but it doesn't make me feel much better.
 
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jitters this topic had a very sommon effect on me but it does say it rains on the just and unjust i have been having issues also my son in law was murdered when my grandchildren were 14mos (boy) 2 and 4(girls) then almost a years later of course (BOTH WERE NEAR CHRISTMAS TIME)
my bro passe in a car accident 6 mos later my friend passed from lung cancer before all this in 93 i was run over by car and homebound for 2 ears they said i would not walk but found dr and prayed 2 months and surgery i walked now i am great it destroyed my left leg but now can not even tll it you see i also had alot of issues with all this but what keeps me going is this( GOD DOES NOT PUNISH US HE JUST PERMITS THINGS AND OUR UNDERSTANDING IS NOWHERE NEAR OUR CREATURES I HAD A BIG PRBLEM FOR ALONG TIME I AM TALKING YRS BUT I HAVE RECENTLY REALIZED (i) HAVE NO CONTROL AND HAVE TO WORK THROUGH MY OWN FEELINGS B/CAUSE AFTER ALL DO WE REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND ????WE CAN NOT CONTROL THESE THINGS )and he is in control
 
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also i am still working on this my grandchildren live with me and my fiancee they are now 10 11 and 13 so you seeit is a hard thing to deal with i see my grandchildren (no father) and my nieces and nephew(no father)
 
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i was also diagnosed with coronary artery disease and i am 53 so my anxiety has been a lot worse but i will get through this but the grace of God thru Jesus name
 
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