hi everyone, I haven't visited here for a while-- just decided to stay away.
i've just been feeling really irritable and angry. I look at myself from the outside and I don't like who i am. I know exactly who i want to be, i know my true potential yet i habitually act like this bitter rag. I really try not to project this b/c of course I care how people see me.
I also can't seem to follow my doc's orders ( and this program's for that matter) to cut back on sugar. I love sweets, I'm like an addict. I'm feeling heavy. I did cut down on my meds so i realize that's a big part. but i would like to handle this with a more holistic approach, vitamin supplements and diet--- but I'm eating for comfort not for nutrition! where is my self-control?
I have a bunch of people in my house right now. they're downstairs socializing and laughing. I'll join them again soon but i just felt like holing myself up in the office to get grounded.
thank you guys for listening...
hope you all have a great holiday and that everyone's well.
so long for now--
spida

hi spida,
You are not an bitter rag, if you were, then you would not even care. Don't ever say those things about yourself.

I have problems with anger management. It is not bitterness, you just don't like the feelings of anger and it makes you mad at yourself, maybe?
I often get irretable, but who doesn't?
Look around you, everyone I have ever met gets irritable once in a while.
Maybe there is a situation in your life that your body - brain - is trying to tell you. Or something real going on!

Go ahead and feel angry! Shoot - everyone else does. Do others expect you to be perfect all of the time?
If they do, then that's thier problem.

I"m really not up to this part 6, but I do find that waiting 24 hours before responding to something that someone has said to me makes me either completely forget about it, or at least confront it in a more mature way , at least on a couple of occasions.

Still the advice will really work and I truely believe that if we work the program it will. But it takes practice. You are telling yourself that you are an angry and bitter person. It's a lie.

Did someone tell you this so often - in order to control you, so much so that you could not assertively speak your mind without being called this or fausely lead to believe this? It is sad to be labled - please don't lable yourself.

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i know my true potential yet i habitually act like this bitter rag

I'd bet if you really saw yourself and everything good that you did, you would not see yourself this way. Maybe you need more supportive people around you?

I couldn't stand myself the other day, my OCD and depression returned, and you told me it was a habit, like Lucinda said. Doesn't that make more since. You didn't sound bitter at all to me!
You helped me and my day went good!

Everyone gets angry---EVERYONE! Look around you!

YOu made me feel better, Hope tomorrow is better.

And who really has self-control when they are hurting anyway! You are looking at yourself through false eyes. And yes meds are a pain! Losing weight is a pain- it all is! But you are not seeing the reality of what you really are!

hey lum ocean, thanks so much for the encouragement-- I feel much better than I did the other day. I've been a little up and down, maybe from all the sugar...
yes, this is all a habit, giving in to being irritable and only seeing the negative side. I guess I just have to make a habit of counting my blessings more.
thanks again,
spida