Hi guys,

Lately I think I've been having one of those growth spurts. I have started looking for a new job, and found a potential place about 2 hours away from here (where I want to move) I went for an interview, and the guy shows up 1/2 hour late in a dirty t-shirt and jeans. We scheduled a working interview, but we never really clarified whether I'd get paid for it (I'd be bringing in revenue for him, so thought I should get paid) I emailed and asked a bunch of questions, which he never answered. So I called to confirm I was working, and asked to come at 10 am because its a long drive for me. The receptionist said ok. So 2 days before I'm supposed to go, he finally responds to my email, saying that it somehow got in his junkmail, and he just noticed it 'by chance'. Unfortunately my email had gone down, and I didn't get the message. He cancelled out, and didn't have the decency to call me on short notice and tell me. So I drove 2 hours only to find that I had no job. Plus, I hadn't read the e-mail, so wasn't sure why he really cancelled, and was afraid that it was because he didn't like my questions. I made the best of it and wandered around trying to learn about the place for 2 hours, thinking I had a chance at a job. Went home and found that he said that he'd filled the position, that he was angry that I wanted to come at 10 am because I should be there when they opened no matter how early I have to get up. That some of the questions I asked were none of my business. Etc. And the jerk let me wander around his clinic because he was too chicken to face up to his spammy message. AHHRRRRRGGGGGH.
Now I'm back to square one with the job search, and I really want to move out. Live with my brother and relations are really strained. Plus I have not one good friend in the area here, and I don't want to start socializing with new friends, dates etc if I'm going to be living 2 hours away in a couple months anyway.
Plus I feel like I'm being pulled in a thousand directions right now. I visit family a lot, which is 2 1/2 hours away. Trying to move closer to shorten the commute. My parents are aging, and need help. My mom in particular is very demanding of my time, and the more I help the more she wants. She's never happy with what I give. My dad just gave himself a hernia because he wouldn't let us help him, and now my Mom and sister are basically having panic attacks because he's the only one that can load the wood stove, and if he can't this winter, the logic they're saying is "he won't be able to live on the farm, they may need to go to a rest home, oh heavens, we'd better take the car away, because he's 89 years old. (He drives fine, no unexplained dents or paint streaks, and he hasn't wandered a hundred miles away and not know where he is or anything. I'm thinking JUST CHILL OUT!!!!
My mom also has her health problems, uterine prolapse, obesity, hypothyroidism, and I think agorophobia and the worst attitude possible. She doesn't drive, and she can't lift much either.
My sister's husband tried to kill her about a year ago, and I call her once a week. I really haven't enjoyed it because its usually pretty heavy and she wants me to visit, because her car is not running well, and she doesn't want to leave town. I told her to rent a car. Her jerk of a husband while in jail is dragging his feet on the divorce, so she can't move, and can't spend any money because he technically owns half of what she has.
again ARRRRGGGGH.
In the midst of all this, my eating habits have gone to pot, I'm not exercising because of all the work I'm doing, and my sleeping is getting bad again. Its 3 am right now.
At least I know why!!!!

Sorry for the long and cranky post, I just needed to vent. For future reference I'll put one of those angry stickers on the message so if you're looking for an uplifting post you don't wander into this!!!

Hi Deb,

I think that it feels good to vent once in a while. I recently did some venting of my own in the "parent to parent" section, and it made me feel better!

I have a similar situation with my folks...and at least your dad tries to load the wood stove!! My dad sits on the couch and lets my mom do it.

Just know that nobody's family is perfect. Things don't always go the way that we expect but you just have to take it all in stride. It's probably a good thing that you didn't get that job...it sounds like the the jerk was also a flake and who wants to work with someone like that? You will find another job where you are very happy.

Hang in there and vent away! Sometimes it feels better just to know that someone is listening...or reading.

Jeff "Medazzaland"