Hey guys, i posted in here cause ive been posting waaaay too much in the other section and i dont wanna push others important questions down....aaaaanyway..

Ok so heres the thing. Every few months i just get REALLY annoyed at everything, thismorning i was cleaning down here and my mother was on the computer, and for some reason i just got REALLY annoyed looking at her and my mother is like my best friend in the world. For some reason i am just looking at people and getting REALLY p*ssed. I took some advice that Betsy gave me, thismorning but for some reason, it made me panic more cause i couldnt find good reasons for coping all my things were basically "just dont worry about it". Its like all of this is bringing on scary thoughts and im thinking, "why am i so angry?" "Am i evil?" "Why do i just wanna hit someone or something really hard?" "can i snap and go nuts from being too mad?"(the last one is a BIIIIG fear for me right now!!) So those are the thoughts going threw my head lately, and once i start, i cant stop, ive been workin on it, trying all the info i have gotten in the other part of the forum. Am i thinking too much about this? am i trying too hard to not worry again?

Then, ok if ya have scary thoughts, DONT DONT DONT read this next part!! Cause i have them and it freaked me out. Im reading on some sites about anger management in hopes that i wouldnt have to bother you all again, and i came across this one site that had 4 ways to calm down, and the doctor said, if you cant calm down from these 4 things than someone or something is gonna get hurt! Aaaaaaaaaaah! So there goes my mind racing a million miles a min from THAT too.

I seem to know most of the reasons why i am angry but i just can NOT stop being p*ssed. Ive even gotten mad watching cartoons, and commercials, what the heck is wrong with me?
I feel like im really lost with this guys, im gettin scary thoughts and im all shakey now. I just keep thinking this anger is gonna build up, im gonna snap, go nuts and start killing ppl cause im so p*ssed, Can that happen?? I hate to bother all of you about this again, but i feel like im the only one that gets this mad! I mean have any of you ever looked at a family member you loved dearly and gotten p*ssed for no reason? Whats that all about? I guess if its not one thing, its something else huh? Thanks for taking the time to read this guys, i appreciate any advice or help that you can give me. Take care all.

Doyle

Doyle

Your questions are important too! Don't think that because you posted more than once about a subject it's not as important, ok??

First of all, if you are feeling so angry there must be a reason why. If you were just pissed at one person, I'd say they did something and you chose to get and stay angry about it. If you are pissed at the world, could it be that you are angry at yourself about something? Are you angry at the way you dealt with someone when they did something you thought was inappropriate?

Instead of concentrating on if you are evil (Which you're NOT) or if you are gonna snap (Which you're NOT) try to really figure out what is making you angry. You have been asking yourself questions perhaps out of habit, or the anxiety is feeding your anger but did you sit down and really think about what's bothering you?

Doyle, my temper used to be worse than yours and at times I even got violent but I grew up in a violent environment so I thought it was right. WRONG! So I understand anger, but you CHOOSE how you react on your anger - you aren't going to snap.

About reading things on the Internet, take things with a grain of salt unless you know for sure if the information is from someone reliable. It's soooo easy for us to freak out about some dumb article or test on the Internet which is probably garbage anyhow.

Doyle, how can you think you are evil? You are so cute because evil is like the complete opposite of you!!

I dunno if this helped you at all. If not, hopefully someone can give you some good advice. Take care sweetie.

Hey Doyle,
First let me start by saying that Grateful is sooo right about the fact that you would never hurt anyone since you're afraid of it. That's exactly why it's a scary thought and nothing more.

I personally have serious anger on occasion, but I never let anyone outside my close family/ friend circle see it. I think that might be what's happening with you. You're really angry about something, but instead of letting it out, you're keeping it bottled up inside and it just eats at you until every little thing ticks you off. I get that way alllll the time. If something's bothering me I won't express it right away or direct it at the source...instead, I end up saving it for my mom (whom I love dearly) or even cute cuddly creatures like the cat

Anyway, try to find what you really are angry about and write it down. Writing just helps tremendously. Also, when you feel yourself getting angry, go and listen to some upbeat music. I swear, it's hard to be mad when you're dancing around your room like an idiot


~Tiffany~

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Hey guys,

I just wanted to write and say thank you!

Girl,
Eek there are lots of reasons why i get mad..lol I think you were right on with both of them, im p*ssed at the world and at particular people. I have lots of issues.lol There are things that make me mad that shouldnt, like stupid little things. Something im going to have to work on, bad temper runs in the family. Awwww shucks, and thanks for the compliment!! Hope your having a good day hon! Take care!

Grateful,
Once again with the amazing advice !! I try to tell myself that since im scared about it, i wont do it, but some times it just seems like i can get sooo mad ya know? I love my family and friends and heck even people all together, so i know i wouldnt do anything. Just this darn anxiety gets so annoying sometimes...lol Be nice if we could take vacations from it wouldnt it? ..lol
Ive been working on getting out more, ended up going to the store yesterday with mom so i could calm down a bit, and ended up buying 2 books, one of shakespeare quotes and one of positive chinese proverbs (they were on sale too!! WOOHOOO..lol!! gotta love a bargain!) Thank you for taking the time to reply! Take care!

Tiffany,
Well i express my feelings quite well..lol When i get mad at anyone, i let them know, problem is, seems like i get mad at them more than i should. For me it seems like its just too easy to get mad at everyone and start yelling ya know? Hmmm, i wonder if there is more to it..i KNOW i still get mad about what happened to me when i was a kid and when i was in school. Maybe i need to work on that. hmmm something to ponder..lol!
Totally know what ya mean about dancing around like an idiot! lol i loooove to do that! Have my music blasting right now too! LOOVE music.lol Thanks for the advice hon!! Take care! Have a great night!

Thanks again you guys! YOU ALL ROCK! Take care!..(man, ive said that alot in this post havent i?...lol)

Doyle

Doyle,

Since writing this out here on the forum do you feel any better?

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Don't take anything personally.
Always be impecable with your word.
Don't assume anything.
Always do your best!

Betsy,

Yes, it helps to get the advice. Thats why we come here right? Also sometimes to vent is a good thing, and knowing that im not alone makes me feel better cause then i know everything will be ok when i hear that other ppl have gone threw the same thing....so it helps me out bunches. Take care

Doyle