Hello.....

Has anyone ever felt that they try so hard to overcome these feelings of depression and anxiety the stronger they come on?

Or you try so hard not to be on medication and go with the feelings and they get worse?

I'm very disgusted with this disorder. I'm disgusted with the way I feel, the limitations it has been putting on my life within the last two months, the what if's and the obsessiveness.........I'm tired of it.

Last night was the worst. I woke up again in the middle of the night. I was very scared this time. Each time is different. Major heart palps....Now today I'm trying so hard to be patient with these feelings but I feel I'm started to get depressed about them.

WHY ME? I'm just disgusted. Thank you everyone for allowing me to vent and for giving support.

Hi Monroe,

In one word to your inquiry - YUP.

I sure do feel that way. I went through the program while still on prozac. I went off about a month ago and have found myself very depressed. Rather jumpy and quick to anger. I hate it. I hate the feelings. I'm finding it hard to like myself.

On the other hand, the tapes have helped and I am still living my life and working. I have an awful feeling I'm one of those people who will always need an antidepressant. I'm going to try to stay off prozac until I try (one last time) to have a second baby.

I wish you luck,
Helen

Hi Helen,

You are so right about taking meds. I always think that I'll always be on antidepressants. I don't like that feeling.
I sometimes catch myself, comparing myself to others etc. not liking myself.

I work a full time job and I sometimes don't think I'll be able to function, but I know I have too and I manage.

How long have you been off the meds? I too listen to the tapes they're helpful.(I have an old version of the program)

Good Luck on trying to have a baby.

Thanks for replying.........I too wish you luck.....

I've been off prozac no more than 2 months. It's only been a couple of weeks since I quit have the withdrawal symptoms. (I'm so glad that's gone!)

But I find myself becoming easily angered or easily emotional. Sad a lot. Somewhat "lifeless," and I like my life. Really. My son is so fun. My husband is fun although (as many spouses) he can drive me nuts. Finances drive me batty, too. But I suppose we all have those things. To not have them would make life less fruitful.

I'm meandering here! I'll stop now!
Helen

Hi Monroe'
I just replied to your topic and wrote you a nice long reply. Guess what? I got disconnected from the internet. I hate when that happens. I wanted you to know not to ever give up. This is an awesome program, I feel that tape 3 is the key to our recovery. The reason I say that is because when I was 34 My husband and I went to a program much like this in Orange County. I was really bad at the time. They had a group session for 22 weeks and we did a workbook and relaxation tapes too!! It really helped me at the time I couldn't do restaurants for 1 year, I couldn't do shows, grocery stores, escalators, etc. Now I do it all. I still struggle with my driving. That is why I started this program. I went a whole year without an attack and then one day I had a bad one. I let my self talk and my anticiapatory take me right back to the beginning. It has been hard to motivate myself to get going ever since, cus I know what I have to put myself through. I drive but very territorial. I trap myself with my mind. The hardest thing for me to comprehend is that we are our self place. My fear is that I will go to far and not be able to get home, thinking hone is my self place. That is why I think tape 3 is our key to recovery, It is all about what we tell ourself.
Don't lose your focus, I hope we in the forum can support you enough for you not to quit or anything. You have your whole life ahead of you, and God has plans for you.
God bless you, I am a Christian so I will be praying for you. Bye for now Backcomb