I just wanted to know someones opinion, I have had anxiety for years , but it was not until this summer that I relly lost control , not being able to leave my house , not wanting to see enyone , feeling like i am going to hurt someone, i really had 5 months of pure hell !!! all of a sudden I cant recall ever feeling this way before , yes I had attacks but never like this why all of a sudden did this happen to me it was just like a break down all of a sudden!!!
does anyone understand ??
Malaya

Malaya,
Yes, I understand. It really didnt happen all of a sudden. It feels that way tho. Do you have the program? It is worth every penny. You will learn alot from it. I would suggest getting it and start working thru this. You can be happy agian! Reena

I had the same experience but afterwards I realized that Reena's right. It wasn't all of the sudden. I burned out from going on total hyperdrive all my life fueled by anxiety and perfectionism. When I look back at the way I lived most of my life it is no wonder that my body and mind finally said, "enough, something has got to change here" So try to look on it as a positive thing because I think if you really examine your lifestyle before the "breakdown" (that's what I call mine, I hope it doesn't offend you) you'll find that you weren't happy and that anxiety really ruled most of what you did. Try to see this as an opportunity to start fresh and to finally conquer that anxiety and build the life that you always wanted but were afraid to have. That is the way I look at it. I have to believe that this happened for a reason and the truth is if I had kept going at the pace I was, I would always have been miserable and I would have worried myself into an early grave. You have a chance most people don't get. A chance to start from scratch and learn the skills you missed out on in childhood. Skills that most people will never be fortunate enough to learn. You have a real chance to do something great for yourself here that you wouldn't have had before. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but you have got to hit rock bottom before you can find your way back. That's where I am, coming back up from the bottom. You can too. Just hang in there.

nikki

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And Jesus was a sailor when he walked upon the water .... and when he knew for certain only drowning men could see him, he said all men will be sailors then, until the sea shall free them.

Hi Malaya,
I can sure relate you what you wrote!! I had done really well for a few years and then the anxiety started coming back a year ago and I handled it all right but then the stress in my life got out of control and wham! I'am afraid to leave my house, don't want to see anyone, and feeling like I'am really tired of being here!! I know that my coping (or lack of) I what brought me here, being overdramatic and sensitive to everything go me to this place so I'am trying (with the help of the program) to understand why I'am this way and how can change for good. Do you have the program?? If not I highly recommend it, it has helped me to start understanding how to make my life different, and better! When I do kick the anxiety I think I will be a pretty happy person, it is just going to take some time. Take care,
Jodi