I was doing ok until this evening I received a phone call from a colleague to tell me one of my clients died from a heart attack. I was shock and felt terrible about what happened. I tried to get my mind off of it but before I knew it I was having weird body symptoms. I started to feel my heartbeat in my gums/teeth. that has never happened before. then my heart fluttered or palpatated and that was it now I cannot relax. I am terrified of having a heart attack. I am afraid all of the stress and axiety will give me a heart attack.

I have felt like that many times. Sure I was going to die. I always had to remind myself that I never did actually die. That there was a good chance I wouldn't this time either. I know that feeling well and am praying for you tonight.

I'm sorry you are having a bad night. My anxiety has progressed too in weird never before experienced ways. It morphs into bodily symptoms that are new, and that is stressful. What a pain in the butt. Now I have asthma and am scared I am going to die from suffocation when I am panicking. Try and view your new symptoms like this. I know it is scary to think of the physical toll stress can take on our bodies, I listened to session 2 today and it helped me talk myself down from a full blown panic attack. I am no expert and am very new to this program but I will tell you this: of course you are having anxiety, what awful news you just recieved. And in the form of the realization of what terrifies you most. Of course you are going to freak out and it is not surprising,although surely alarming to you, to hear of the new body symptoms you are experiencing. I hope your night gets better and even though I know it is scary, it sounds to me that your body and mind are reacting in a way that is typical to this wonderful disorder of panic that we share.
Take care,
Deborah