IDK how most people have gotten anxiety and depression, but i know the reason that i did. The reason that i have anxiety and depression is because i got confused literaly JUST TRYING TO GET CLOSER TO GOD AND TRYING TO GIVE HIM ALL MY LIFE. But apparently i made the WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE which led to something that has literally been THE WORST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. And i always question WHY, or HOW something that seemed so good and integret, which was simply trying to PLEASE GOD, led to the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I mean i have been through some hard stuff, and i mean REALLY HARD, BUT NEVER SOMETHING AS BAD AS THIS. I mean this thing just literally ROBS YOU OF YOUR LIFE. I mean it just makes me wonder if there really is a god out there...but can you blame me. I mean sometimes it just really seems like were in this alone. Someone...ANYONE...PLEASE REPLY TO THIS MESSAGE AND JUST SOMEHOW GIVE ME PROOF THAT THERE IS A GOD. PLEASE

MG19 I wish I could give you proof that there is a God. All I can say is consider the "creation" do you think its possible all this wonder was an accident? That is what I do when I start to freak out and wonder why I cant seem to feel God, why I have such a hard time with my faith, when I dont understand why a loving, merciful God would let me keep suffering. One thing I have just recently learned is that if accepted Jesus as our Lord and Savior there is no blame directed at us from God whatsoever, none, zip. He sees us through Christ's blood and we are righteous before him so any guilt we feel is coming from ourselves, or others, the enemy, even sometimes the church. I dont know if this will help but it helped me to watch this video. The link is http://www.leonfontaine.com/weeklymessage.php?lastweeks=true. If you need to talk please Pm me . I do understand the struggle of wanted to please God and of failing miserably, and of the guilt I will never get it right. I know what its like to doubt not only your faith but God's very existence. Please hang in there you really much loved by God. We all are.

have you read about Lucinda's story? If you look at the top of this page it has her name. Click on it and you can read her story. She talks about her struggles as a child all the way up to today.
You will find out how she prayed to God for answers.
This is a quate from it "my suffering was not in vain. Today, I see my struggle with Anxiety and Depression as a gift"
The whole story is good. I would encourage everyone to read it.
I think it would lift your spirits.
Take- care

Yes there is a God and he is wonderful! I have gone through periods in my life when I wanted nothing to do with God, church, prayer,etc. Even though those times seemed filling there was always something missing. Only when I hit rock bottom did I realize God was telling me to slow down, and relax, and give my problems to him. Sounds so simple huh? It takes a lot of faith, patience, and letting go for you to find ur way back. But, you can do it, and only if and when you choose to! Check out www.joycemeyer.com and also google sarah and marilyn hickey. They helped me tremendousley, and you can even get on their prayer list. Remember: Your greatest suffering comes before your greatest victory! Take care and hoped that helped!

There is great grace in suffering. I've read some incredible stories on it (in a great book), aside from experiencing my own suffering. The book I'm referencing is called, "Amazing Grace for Those Who Suffer". I highly recommend it. There are other "Amazing Grace for..." books as well (i.e., Married Couples, Teens)

May God bless you in your struggles.

There is a God. The Bible is true. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. He has a purpose and a plan for your life just as he does mine perfectly designed and all. We cannot see the big picture, our view is limited and that is where living and walking by faith comes in. If you could see the big picture you wouldn't walk by fatih you would walk by sight. We must take the first step of faith and that is accepting Jesus as our Savior, ask forgiveness of our sins and ask Him to save us. No good works or anything we can do will put us right with God except accepting His gift of salvation. He never said life would be easy but he does promise to walk us through every trial. He will never leave you or forsake you. I have been saved for 33 years and in all that time God has never abandoned me. He is my all in all. He gives me hope therefore i am never without hope. My life seemed to spin out of control about 3 years ago. i have been searching for answers to my health and have battled health symptoms all my life. My first thought was God what are you doing! Anyway, I have learned alot through this tough time and have grown closer to Him. I wouldn't trade these past most difficult years for anything. God's timing is not ours. He will walk me through the anxiety and all that goes with it. I won't say it has been easy or that there hasn't been any tears, but I'm learning and my faith is growing. He knows there will be ups and downs but He will pick me up and i will keep going. I can do it with His help. His Word says I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Take Heart and know that God loves you and cares for you. You are proof that there is a God. He created you. Before He created anything into existence He knew you. He knows everything about you.YES THERE IS A GOD!!

Hello MG,
I wish I could show you a picture and tell you this is him. I can not and no one else can. I don't think your the only person that has wondered if God is real or the only one that lost some faith in God.

The important thing is this God has never lost faith in you.

May God Bless you.
Susan

I can't top what the others have said for most of them took the words right out of my mouth of what I would have said. I would like to add however that I believe God let us have this problem because he knew we were strong enough to deal with it and to overcome it in time. I truly believe he let us be this way instead of healing us from it (which he can do in his time) so that we can be there for others who may not be as strong as we are and who need help worse than we do. I believe God is using us as his helpers to help each other and others who will be led to each and every one of us for help to get themselves through their own paths of anxiety and Agoraphobia. It is very hard to live like this and I have also let my faith slide yelling at God for letting me live in this prison (God forgive me) instead of healing me. But at the same time there is a positive side to being like this which is being able to meet some very wonderful and awesome friends in the chatroom I would have not met had I not been Agoraphobic right now, so although I still hate not being able to do normal things yet I have to believe that through this site, the awesome new friends/group in the chatroom, and my faith in God I will overcome this and get my life back. Hang in there and let us be there for you.

God bless,
Susan

I can not give you proof but I can tell you how my faith was encouraged that there is a God and how he wants me to get closer to him.

I listen to lesson three - negative talk and relized how much I have done it. The next day for my daily devotion I had the following:

Detoxing Your Mind

Today's Scripture

“Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life” (Proverbs 4:23 AMP).


When something is toxic, it’s poisonous; it can destroy you. When we go around dwelling on the wrong thoughts, thinking about what we can’t do or how we’ll never get ahead, those thoughts are toxic thoughts. Toxic thoughts left alone become like toxic waste that sinks into your heart. It will eventually contaminate your whole life. It affects your self-image. It affects your attitude, your level of confidence, and ultimately, your success. That’s why the scripture says to guard your heart because the condition of your heart and mind determine the condition of your whole life.



Make the decision today to detox any negative, self-defeating thoughts by meditating on God’s promises instead. Make the decision to detox bitterness, detox low self-esteem, detox negative words that may have been spoken over you, detox condemnation. Make the decision to dwell on what God says about you. God says, “You are forgiven.” God says, “Your best days are in front of you.” God says, “I’ll restore the years that the enemy has stolen.” As you detox your mind and fill your thoughts with His promises, you’ll see His hand of blessing on your life. You’ll rise up higher, and you’ll live the abundant life He has for you!



A Prayer for Today

Father in heaven, I invite You to purify my heart and mind by Your Spirit today. Wash me with the Word as I meditate on Your wonderful promises. Help me keep my mind focused on You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.


This was a conformation to me that I was on the right path and to contine the work in this program. I always felt there was a distance with God and now I am breaking down the barriers that I built so I will get closer.

Thanks stvrsstr , I believe this is program is the answer to my prayers. Thank you for all you had to say, I will be doing my best to apply what you've written, it makes great sense.

I had a hard time my whole life trying to make sense of my Catholic upbringing,which never quite resonated with me. Then I read The Power of Now & A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle and for the first time in my life, I finally have some inner peace with knowing that there is a higher power. It's the first thing I've heard or read that's ever made any kind of sense to me, not only on a mind level but something much deeper than that.

Hi, I have tried to type a message about my feelings about religion but have a feeling that perhaps it was too strong and has not been allowed to go through. I have many questions when it comes to faith and I wish we were free to discuss these on here, but apparently not. Unless I just lost the message accidentally, I don't know.
Joy

there is a God and if there was not one then i do not think that i would be here.you have to read my story sometime. it will fill you in on my struggles and then how i over come them.if you get confused about something then sit down and talk to someone or ask someone in here.
if we are going through hard times i think that we will get out of it and come out on top with Gods help.iknow that sometimes we get confused and i do too and i know that i am much older then some in here or most.but i was raised in church as a child and then was away from it for years.just remember this.He will never leave us nor forsake us.
the devil is going to and fro seeking whom he may devior.i think that it is he that confuses and not God.take care and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.God Bless.
don
I can't do it but,He can

MG, welcome. many of us in western faiths-bible oriented, and those eastern faiths (various kinds around the world), have been where you are at. (((((cyber hugs to you MG)))))). i agree its one of the worst pains of the heart when sorely disappointed how things surrounding your faith have transpired.many have believed some 'wrong toxic' things surrounding what they were taught to believe. many also, have a magical way of believing and sadly things can get shot down in flames---sounds like you have experienced that. i have too. at any rate, spirituality is a part of us---and often depending on where we were born---meaning what country/what part of the world/what family we were born into=affects our foundations of what we have come to believe. many have their own "opinions" of what the RIGHT faith SHOULD be. that in itself can be upsetting when and if one is a searching type. you must come to the place i think (i could be wrong) that your "opinions" is NOT what is 'Saving" you. better i think to try to begin your days, with a spiritual practice (perhaps prayer, which is a meditation)=with a thanksgiving to your spiritual source/higher power----we can also humbly acknowledge our need and gratefulness of this higher power (your choice /your belief/your own titles of what that higher power is at this time in your 'journey, spiritually. we have so much that has been gifted to us, without our own doing. of course the bad and horrible disappointments surrounding spiritual EXPECTATIONS/and the people we may have expected more of.....can sorely cause deep pain and worse. these other ones are not what will be saving us, or uplifting us all too often. if one is a bible sort, Ezekial 34 has helped me at times, knowing god knows what bad things we can go thru at the hands of those we may have expected more of, to only get their worst. sadly people often "just think" they are good etc. the bible says many things about that=matt 18:15-17, and sadly if that doesn't work, then=matt. 10:14. MG, many hugs to you....it is so very painful to experience spiritual pain i think...just remember, these people are NOT what is 'saving you', and YES, our spirituality can often find us ONE on ONE with our source. also, know that god wants you to be happy and grow beyond these painful things, and alll is NOT lost. that particular experience or those people may be...NOT for your upbuildment and you also may not be aware of toxic beliefs you may have involved in your own inner spirituality--whether taught or absorbed thru your past teachings. MG, you WILL get thru this...but do NOT look to those who may have harmed you to be the ones to help you to a better frame of heart and mind. YES, this program believe it or not...you can step thru this horrible experience, and find a better spiritual path that upbuilds you.

it sounds like you have not lost your faith as you are still questioning who God is. Those who do not believe in God do not even question. I can relate to a very hard life and guess what we are still here, we are survivors. We are the wounded healers. Our experiences can help others. You feel, you have emotions and God forgives. I find it hardest to forgive myself
Hang in there