I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I RECEIVED THE PROGRAM OVER TWO WEEKS AGO. I STOPPED FOR A BIT AND HAVEN'T LISTENED TO IT AGAIN. I KNOW THE CHAT ROOM ISN'T OPEN AFTER 10PM...BUT I WISH SOMEONE WAS AWAKE THAT I CAN CALL. ALL I CAN DO IS CRY....I AM SO UPSET AT MYSELF BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE A CRY-BABY!!!!! I JUST WISHED I HAD SOMEONE TO CALL OR SEE RIGHT NOW. IT'S ABOUT 3:30AM IN THE MORNING....I WISH I WAS ASLEEP. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO HAVE A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP....I KNOW IT DOESN'T MATTER REALLY...EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PROBLEMS...AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M WRITING THIS & NOW.....I CAN'T SEEM TO WANT TO LISTEN TO THE PROGRAM AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO AND EVERYONE IS SLEPING ALWAYS AT NIGHT AND BEING ALONE & BY MYSELF AND NOT BEING ABLE TO GO TO FAMILY AND FRIENDS, JUST FEELS SO HORRIBLE. I DON'T KNOW. I AM SO SAD & MAD & FRUSTRATED...I KNOW WE HAVE THIS WEB SITE...BUT I WISH SOMEONE COULD REALLY BE THERE FOR ME FOR REAL IN FRONT OF ME OR SOMEONE I CAN CALL & HEAR THEIR VOICE.....I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A BABY AND THAT LIFE IS JUST HARD & THAT'S HOW IT IS AND THAT THERE ARE BAD PEOPLE AND THAT NO ONE CAN BE LIKE ME....I JUST CAN'T RELY ON ANYONE...I WISH I WASN'T SO SENSITIVE AND SO SAD.....I JUST WISHED I DIDN'T CRY SO MUCH...IT HAS TO DO ALOT WITH THE FACT THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THE FACT THAT THERE ARE INSENSITIVE PEOPLE OUT THER AND THAT I GET SO DISAPPOINTED & SAD SO MUCH. I WISH I COULD BE COLD HEARTED LIKE EVERYONE. NOTHING & NO ONE WOULD HURT ME. I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M WRITING ALL THIS....IT'S NOT LIKE ANYONE CAN REALLY HELP ME...I'M HERE AND NO ONE CAN COME HERE...ALL THEY CAN DO IS WRITE...I KNOW THERE IS SO MANY THINGS TO DO TO FIX THIS LIKE THE STUFF THAT THE PROGRAM SAYS, ...BUT...I CAN'T DO IT...OR I JUST DON'T HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO DO IT...IT DOESN'T MATTER...EVERYONE IS GOING THROUGH SOMETHING...I GUESS I JUST WROTE THIS, TO JUST WRITE IT...FOR NOW AT LEAST, UNTIL I DECIDE WHAT TO DO....I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING BUT JUST CURL UP & DISAPPEAR...IT WOULD MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR ME & ESPECIALLY FOR EVEYONE AROUND ME...I WOULDN'T MAKE THINGS DIFFUCULT FOR EVERYONE...I WANT TO FEEL NOTHING! I GUESS SINCE I KNOW THIS WEB SITE IS OPEN FOR COMMENTS, I GUESS I JUST WROTE...I HAVE NO ONE TO CALL, AND ANYWAY,...EVERYONE IS ASLEEP....I WISH I WAS ASLEEP FOR A LONG TIME....I KNOW I CAN'T CALL THE CENTER AT THIS TIME, WHICH IS 3:50AM IN THE MORNING, BUT I WISH I COULD. I WISH I COULD STOP CRYING.

YOU HAVE COME TO THE RIGHT PLACE FOR HELP. I AM IN A WHEEL CHAIR AND YOU CAN'TT CALL BECAUSE MY SPEECH WAS AFFECTED BY 3 BRAIN SURGERIES BUT KNOW THAT I AM PRAYING FOR YOU. HOPE THIS PROGRAM HELPS YOU AND ALLOWS YOU TO SLEEP. PLEASE GET ON THIS WEB SITE WHENEVER POSSIBLE. GOOD LUCK. YOU CAN DO THIS!

What you were writing I have written so many times. You are depressed and should really get some help. Your words spoke to me because I have written them before. I would give you my phone number but this is a public site and I can't. However I check my e-mail frequently and find myself up very early at times. Please e-mail me and I'll give you my phone number so you have someone to talk to that understands you. tammie.m.ray@gmail.com. Best of luck.

Hi Hon! I know how you feel. I've been there many times. Have you seen a Dr.? They really can help you. When I've felt like that I would just go to the emergency room. It's aweful feeling that way but you CAN feel better. Are you on any medication? Even if it's just for a little bit. I know some people don't like the idea of meds but they really can help. Please go to a dr. right away. You don't need to feel this way and all of us here would not want anything to happen to you. Email me. posapizza@yahoo.com. I am thinking and praying for you. I hope you email me. Hang in there...PLEEEAASE.

I am so sorry that you feel so sad right now. I wish i could make you feel better. Just know that we are here for you. We have all dealt with or going through what you are describing. (including myself). You can email me at anytime if you have any questions i am here for you! rmc0425@yahoo.com. God bless!

Hey Very Sad:
Been there Done that. I agree with all the other posts. Meds can help and you don't necessarily be on them the rest of your life. They just help you get over the rough spots. I would think you could go online and talk to someone. It seems to me that there are people online at all hours of the night and day. Just get into a chat room or a forum.
And DO go see a dr. I know this is a rough time of year around the holidays and many normal people get depressed. We, with anxiety and depression, have a harder time. We feel so isolated and alone. Knowing most people have family and friends. This year might be worse with the state of affairs of money and jobs.You are not alone. We are all here to help you. And there is a number to go one on one with and you should utilize it.Call those counselors or coaches and talk to them. That's what they are there for. Keep the FAITH!!!

Very recently I was in that same panicked state, and I am not completely healed yet. I still have issues to work through, so know that you are not alone. I am SO GLAD you are reaching out here in this forum... you know that the people in here want to help you, and they are here for you. You are special! God bless!
Amber

I AM SO GREATFUL TO EVERYONE ONE OF YOU’S FOR ALL OF YOUR RESPONSES. I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT EVEN
THOUGH YOU’S DON’T KNOW ME, THAT YOU ALL STILL CARE. IT’S WILD THAT I HAVE FRIENDS & FAMILY AROUND ME & THEY CAN CARE LESS, ….BUT YET, I READ ALL THESE RESPONSES TO ME & I GET MORE CARE FROM ALL OF YOU’S THEN I DO MY OWN
BLOOD RELATIVES. I WROTE DOWN ALL OF THE EMAILS THAT YOU’S HAVE GIVEN TO ME & YOU HAVE NO IDEA OF HOW THAT MADE ME FEEL. THAT WAS SO SWEET THAT YOU WOULD WANT ME TO EMAIL YOU’S. THANK YOU. I AM STILL FEELING THE SAME TONIGHT. IT IS ABOUT 3AM IN THE MORNING AGAIN & I DON’T KNOW HOW MANY MORE DAYS I CAN FEEL LIKE THIS. IT IS SO HARD TO BE HERE ALONE & I AM TRYING TO STAY CALM & I AM TRYING TO STOP MYSELF FROM CRYING. I JUST FEEL LIKE DRINKING UNTIL I PASS OUT. BUT I AM TRYING NOT TO DO THAT YET. I WILL LIKE TO THANK EACH ONE OF YOU’S SEPERATELY WITH A LITTLE POSTED NOTE.

HI DEB EMENHISER, WOW, I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH & WHAT YOU GO THROUGH NOW. THAT IS WHY I GET SO FRUSTRATED AT MYSELF, BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE THAT ARE OUT THERE WHO ARE WORSE OFF THEN I AM & I SHOULDN'T BE FEELING SO SAD. BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE PRAYERS. I WISH YOU THE BEST!

HI TAMMIE R, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR EMAIL. I APPRECIATE IT. I WILL TRY TO EMAIL YOU.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT & I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL.

HI POSA, I HAVEN'T SEEN A DR FOR THIS YET. I DON'T WANT TO TAKE ANY MEDS FOR NOW. I WAS HOPING THAT THIS PROGRAM WILL HELP ME TO NOT TAKE MEDS. I KNOW I'LL HAVE TO GIVE THIS PROGRAM A CHANCE FIRST. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOU HAD TO GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM FOR YOUR ATTACKS, THAT MUST HAVE BEEN SCARY FOR YOU. I HAVEN'T DONE THAT YET, BUT I KNOW IF I CONTINUE LIKE THIS, THEN I WILL HAVE TO GO. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR EMAIL & PRAYERS. I WILL TRY TO EMAIL YOU.
I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL.

HI RMC0425, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR EMAIL & SUPPORT & FOR WANTING TO HELP ME. I WILL TRY TO EMAIL YOU. GOD BLESS YOU TOO!

HI ROSELO, I WILL TRY TO CALL THE CENTER TO SEE IF THEY WILL HAVE A NUMBER I CAN CALL AFTER HOURS. THAT WOULD BE GREAT. I WILL TRY TO KEEP MY FAITH. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ADVICE.
I HOPE ALL IS GOING WELL FOR YOU.

HI PUPPCAKE, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT. AND I HOPE YOU WORK THROUGH WHAT YOU ARE FEELING NOW. I HOPE ALL IS GETTING BETTER FOR YOU. GOD BLESS YOU TOO!

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