What happended....I was going to start session one today and when I woke up today I felt good so my mind starts down the road of your fine you can do this on your own....besides how much more can your husband take one more program, one more situation. Does anyone else have a spouse that is "normal" stood by you and just wants everything to be ok? He is getting tired I can tell. Could it be that I am affraid of what change will bring? I don't have words right now...some help please.

Just start the program slowly. A little everyday. My husband loves this program because he says I'm a lot different already. I haven't even noticed it that much, but he says I am not over-reacting like I used to when our son would push my buttons. I love this program and I think everyone would benefit from it if they only put the effort into it and tell themselves comforting things... Like, "I'm worth the time and I deserve to be happy and at peace"

I'm sure you take good care of your husband, and you should. But when it comes to your health, you have to stop worrying about how your husband or anybody else feels, because you have to take care of yourself. If he starts getting frustrated, have a talk with him about how important it is, to you and the whole family, that you get better.

Fear is what our disorder is all about, fearing is defined; False Evidence Appearing Real. Happens to us all, we all want to pull ourselves up, and not let this (thing) be real, then we wouldn't have to deal with it, we can just keep doing what we are doing. Here's the thing, if we do that nothing changes, and our flesh is satisfied, but our sole is sad, and we cry inside, and nothing can make us happy, until we face the dragon, and slay it. Do the project, for your self, not for him, Oh he will be glad you did it, but you will be HAPPY for it. So JUST DO IT! you will never regret it.

Heyyyy, rmichelle.
Part of our battle is with these inner derailing thoughts. You got yourself on the right track and started this program. The little part of you that is protecting you--that protected you at 2, 5 or 8 years old, is hanging on to keep you safe. She is telling you your husband is tired, he likes you the way your are--but the grown up you wants something your deserve to have: no anxiety, no depression, but happiness, joy, fulfillment, warmth. You deserve it. Imagine how happy your husband will be with you happy.