Hello all, I am having a rough time with anticipitory anxiety again . I'm about to make a major change in my life concerning my voice.
I'm going to see a speech pathologist about changing my voice so that it doesnt crack and so i can speak louder, but all this has really exposed my deep seeded fears of change and being vulnerable to people. I was doing great for a while (well i still am i guess) but then WHAM its back.

I admit..I'm being really negative...I catastrophize...I know this is not good but it's like I'm convinced there's always some "big disaster" waiting to happen to me in the future that I wont be able to handle (getting in a car accident, losing my mind, getting raped etc..)
I think "ok so it didn't happen TODAY, I bet it's gonna happen next week" UGH, I am so tired off all this. I try so hard to stop what I do to MYSELF. Any comments welcome