Hello, I'm a new member to this group. Just joined a few minutes ago. I have been going through my sessions and doing my homework religiously. Currently I am on session 8, which happens to be where I stumbled and fell. I asked for a report from my doctor's office to be faxed to me concerning a MRI of my lumbar spine to have placed in my medical records at my job. I had sustained a back injury at work. I'm a registered nurse and am also in Nurse Practitioner School. Well, as it turns out, the doctor's office faxed the results of every test that I had done this year. Mind you, I have been told by the office nurse that all test were "fine". Well, I got back the MRI Brain Scan which revealed a demylelinating disorder in the mild or early stage. Had I not been in the medical profession I would have been fat, dumb and happy (smile). Me being me, now I'm worried that I may have Multiple Sclerosis. I have tried to change my negative thoughts to positive thoughts, but somehow I still worry. I have cried, and have prayed about this. I am looking forward to graduating soon and hope that this is not what I think it is. I know this message is very lengthy, but I have a lot to get out and vent about. Please say a prayer that everything is ok when I call my neurologist first thing in the morning. Also I need prayer for strength. Whenever I face a crisis of any type, I fall completely apart. Thanks in Advance.

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Butterfly

Butterfly,

It seems to me that if there was anything wrong, you would have been notified. How long ago was this MRI done?

Take deep cleansing breaths and keep positive thoughts in your mind. Do not jump to any conclusions until you have all the facts. Consider yourself lucky that you are a nurse and are able to read an MRI. Most of us wouldn't know what we were looking at and it would go undetected. You are one step ahead of the game.

Now, call the office and get all the facts. Then deal with them as they are presented to you. If you keep telling yourself you fall apart when dealing with a crisis, that's exactly what you'll do. Keep telling yourself, "I can handle anything that comes my way."

Good luck and let us know how you're doing.

Margie

Butterfly,
Just wondering how you are doing? I am going through something similar and just wondered what was going on with you.
Hope all is well!
DGgirl

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Originally posted by DGgirl:
Butterfly,
Just wondering how you are doing? I am going through something similar and just wondered what was going on with you.
Hope all is well!
DGgirl

Thanks for asking. I am going to my neurologist tomorrow for the results. I'll know for sure if I have MS or not. I had to have a spinal tap and blood work drawn. The waiting is killing me. I am depressed, however, I'm listening to my tapes and reading the bible and trying to stay strong and positive. I'll let you know something tomorrow. Let me know how you're doing also.


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Butterfly

All is well. My results were negative. I thank GOD, and thank you all for your prayers and words of encouragement.

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Butterfly

Awesome. Glad to hear it. Thanks for letting us know.

Hi butterfly,
I am soooooo thrilled for you!!! I have been checking to see if you posted. I was praying for you. I mentioned I was going through the same thing. Sounds like we had the same kind of MRI. I have no "symptoms", I got an MRI due to anxiety about something being wrong with me. It came back with "non-specific changes"- only 3 little areas. My doctor wasn't concerned at all and didn't even refer me to a neurologist. She said her MRI came back the same way. The radiologist wasn't concerned either. I didn't go to a neurologist because I was too nervous. She said that if it was a few years ago they would have just said my MRI was normal (like what happened to you) but they told me about the non-specific changes because everyone sues nowadays. Must be the same kind of thing.

I am so happy for you! Your post really made me feel better. I've been worried but trying to put it behind me. I imagine that if we had an MRI of everyone on the planet, many people would have things that mean nothing. Those tests are very sensitive!

Now, go out a live your life free of worry. You deserve it. We all do. We worry about what might happen in 10 years when any one of us could get hit but a bus tomorrow. That's why living in the moment is so important

Hello, Butterfly:
I'm so glad your neuro Dr. soothed your fears about the MRI test results you got by mistake and were concerned you had Multiple Sclerosis. Sometimes a little bit of knowledge can be dangerous for those of us in the medical field.
I happen to have Multiple Sclerosis and 3 other neuro diagnosis and I can tell you, I thank God everyday about the MS Dx, because when you know a little about medicine, you can think of so many things which could of been worse.
I got my dx. in a real professional way. After having the MRI's and Spinal tap with 5 abnormalities in it, I was sent to UAB in Birmingham to see a "Specialist". I had probably seen 7 or 8 Dr's by then. He still didn't give me a diagnosis and I had begged for one from all the others, but when he gave me my check-out sheet, I noticed he had Multiple Sclerosis (Advanced) R/R marked on it.
I was flabergasted! :Rolleyes:
I asked him when had the determination been made about the (Advanced) MS Relapsing/Remitting? He just looked at me like I was "Stupid" and said "Ma'am, if you didn't have MS, you wouldn't of been seeing me." The date was April 1, 1997. My first thought was that it was an April Fool's Day joke on me!
But when I got over my shock, I realized Dr's don't joke about a diagnosis like mine.
But after one had said he thought it was a brain tumor and I might have 3 months to live, you can get real happy over a dx of MS!
I don't know exactly why I felt compelled to write and tell you this, except I remember reading somewhere that 97% of all the things we worry about NEVER come to pass!
Now, ya'll have a NICE Day. My MS is one of the least of my worries. I can't do anything about it at all. I fret over the little things which I can do something about.
Ha Ha
Sincerely,
BamaLady

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Originally posted by DGgirl:
Hi butterfly,
I am soooooo thrilled for you!!! I have been checking to see if you posted. I was praying for you. I mentioned I was going through the same thing. Sounds like we had the same kind of MRI. I have no "symptoms", I got an MRI due to anxiety about something being wrong with me. It came back with "non-specific changes"- only 3 little areas. My doctor
wasn't concerned at all and didn't even refer me to a neurologist. She said her MRI came back the same way. The radiologist wasn't concerned either. I didn't go to a neurologist because I was too nervous. She said that if it was a few years ago they would have just said my MRI was normal (like what happened to you) but they told me about the non-specific changes because everyone sues nowadays. Must be the same kind of thing.

I am so happy for you! Your post really made me feel better. I've been worried but trying to put it behind me. I imagine that if we had an MRI of everyone on the planet, many people would have things that mean nothing. Those tests are very sensitive!

Now, go out a live your life free of worry. You deserve it. We all do. We worry about what might happen in 10 years when any one of us could get hit but a bus tomorrow. That's why living in the moment is so important

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Butterfly

DGgirl, thanks so much for praying for me. I
feel so good inside to know that someone out there really cares. I had the three areas like you, as well as the "non-specific changes." I will continue to praise GOD, for I know it was divine intervention. My neurologist is a christian also. He even prayed while he was perfoming my spinal tap.
I constantly pray for spiritual strength, and this is the way one acquires spiritual strength; enduring trials and tribulations. I'm glad you are ok as well. I refuse to go to a doctor for anything until I'm finished with NP school. I'm due for a mammogram and pap smear but there's no way I'm going now. This program is very intense and I don't need any added stress. Take care of yourself, Love, Butterfly.

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Butterfly

BamaLady, you're absolutely right. There are a lot of things worse than a diagnosis of MS. I kept reminding myself of that as well as all of the people I knew that had MS, and how they led very active and fulfilling lives. I'm under so much stress now working full time and going to school full time, being a wife, mother, christian, and you name it. I just lost it. I went into a depressive episode, but kept pulling myself up and praying each day. I had to force myself to do everything. Prior to receiving the results, I had developed an inner peace and felt my depression lift and was reassured by GOD, that I would be alright. I put it in his hands. I did not pray that I would not have MS, I prayed for strength to deal with whatever the physician told me. Of course I was happy with negative results. I know that we can't always ask GOD to remove the obstacle/storm, just help us to endure and cope. I feel like I matured a whole lot during this experience. I wish you the best and thanks for your reply. GOD BLESS YOU, Butterfly.

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Butterfly