Hey,
I must say that Lucinda's program opened a new world for me. I am a foreign student, and bought her book from panic to power in my homecountry two years ago. I moved to the states 9 months ago to study at college. I finally made my dream come true by starting school again. Less than 3 month ago I ordered the program, and I am on my way with it. However, I feel that I have difficulties with what if thinking. Most of it has to do with a relationship I had 3 years ago. It started out well, and I was happy. But one day I started to feel weird. I couldn't explain it. My boyfriend started to know some serious changes in me which I was well aware of. I got in a deppression for a couple of months and a little bit later we broke up. It's not that I want him back but ever since that day I havn't been able to get close to someone again. I'm always on the run, and I think that if I get into a relationship again I will be depressed and start to hate myself. My what if thoughts are so scary and I feel trapped. I just don't know how to deal with it. I tried to date a guy here but I found myself on the run again. I really wan't to get over this and be able to be in a relationship, but I'm afraid that I will loose myself. Also, I feel that all the information in the program is sometimes hard to grasp in one week, and I will start to feel stressed about the fact that I don't practice enough on it. Does anyone feel the same? I hope you all keep up the spirit. I know we will make it.

AH
I can relate to what you are feeling. Also you mention being fearful of a new relationship. Is that becuz you had a bad episode while in your last relationship? Do you associate your anxiety/depression with being in a relationship?

Hi,
Maybe you are afraid of having a relationship because you were in one that didn't work out when all the anxiety and depression hit. Sort of an opposite direction than Bakedpears. So you are attaching it to relationships. Work on the program and in time you will be able to figure these things out. Take your time and enjoy learning. As for the tapes containing too much information for one week I agree. I took atleast 2-3 weeks per tape. I was anxious to get better but I needed to take my time to let it sink in. I would suggest you slow down and do the program at a pace that works for you. No pressure. Take care, Reena

Hey Guys,
I guess I relate having a relationship with feeling depressed and not being able to work it out. And also the fact that my boyfriend always wanted me to feel better and I couldn't satify him. Of course I wanted to feel better too, but I felt that since I could not fix it, I was worthless and those feelings are with me still today. It feels as if I have to be glad and happy all the time so that the person I'm with can stand me. I know this is extremely negative thinking and I'm trying hard to let go but havn't found a good way. Do you know if there is a good way to let go of these thoughts, maybe a good mantra?
Thank you so much for replying,it's amazing to have other people who understand you, and yet be totally strangers. Thanks once again.

Hi again,
As you work on your self worth and confidence you won't feel the need to 'be' a certain way. You will see that you are a worthy person just the way you are. The program helped me quite a bit with that. I learned to not put expectations on myself, which is what you are doing when you are around others. We can be very hard on ourselves. I learned to start doing things for me and not for others. I can never please anyone else because they choose their own attitude and if they are always focused on me then they are avoiding looking in the mirror. I also do my best not try to change others. Only me. Reena

AH
Lot of pressure - being "up" all the time. I understand. I felt that way too. But the program suggests treating ourselves the way we would treat a loved one. I would never say to a loved one that they have to be up all the time or I will not like them. Rather I would say, I see you feel a bit down right now, can I help?