Hello,

I have had a major problem with the What-if's and also I think I have a problem with the Obsessive disorder. I have had it cost me the Love of my Life. Throughout the relationship I had problems with the thought that she may go back to an old boyfriend or just choose someone else. I have had this problem throughout my dating life. I guess I never feel like I am enough to satisfy my partner in any way. I became so obsessed with the thought that my girlfriend was going to leave me I became controlling. I basically drove her away from me. I really hurt now because she means the world to me and she has decided to move on with her life and does not want to deal with the person I became to her. I have respected her and left her alone. It is just very difficult...I think of her everyday. I miss her more than anything in this world. I also have a very stressfull job. I do computer support over the phone. We had major layoffs at my job site so I was overwelmed with work and also had a major fear of loosing my job and how I would make ends meet. I would get so worked up about it that I could not sleep at night, I felt like I was going to have a heart attach. My heart would race to the point I fought to get air. I was having anxiety attachs. I know that now...but I thought there was something wrong physically. I felt like my life was falling apart. While my job situation was tough. That is when things got bad for my relationship. She said she felt like I pushed her away while things were bad. I developed a very short temper with her when I would come home. I also just did not listen to her problems. I only wish I could fix things and I don't believe she wants to. She has hurt me also. We broke up over Christmas...we just did not feel comfortable going home to our families with the way things were. She said we would work on it when she came back from Christmas. When she came back she had a different mind set. She did not want to date. I talked her into it. We dated about a month. She just wasn't herself. She really put me off. Then one night she called and said she didn't want to date me anymore. I was crushed. We dated 3 years and she wouldn't even breakup with me directly she did it over the phone. She did it right before Valentines. The following Monday I went to her house to see if I could talk with her. She was already seeing someone else. I had a feeling about it. It is almost as if Me having a problem with her (possibly cheating) planted the idea in her head. Even though she has left me for someone else. I miss her everyday. I know she was the love of my life. I just need to learn how to fix my anxiety. I have had anxiety problems throughout my life. I think I have developed obsessive compulsive disorder with different things in my life.

Hi Mit,

Remember that everyone has the right to chose what they want to get what they need out of life. Obviously your girlfriend has new intentions for her life and she realizes that your relationship is not what she wants. That is her choice.

I can see so many valuable lessons for you to learn from in your letter. Lessons that all
subsequent relationships which you employ will prosper from.

Are you working with the program? I would suggest you take this time and immerse yourself in the program. It takes time and energy, something you will have plenty of over the next while.

A powerful message that someone very wise once told me (which I now understand since implimenting the program)... "You have to Love yourself, before you can Love anyone else".

When used diligently, this is what the program will do for you. The insight you will discover through this process is what will allow you to forge ahead with future relationships. You will attract people in your world that you never once imagined would be there; your relationships will be more solid.

Remember, "You are what you think!"

Happy Thoughts,
Devad