What if thinking is my nemesis! The what if's come flying out at me so fast that I get dizzy trying to respond to all of them with positve thoughts.

My number one what if has to do with the situation that happened 10 years ago! I was taking a math exam and my stomach started gurgling, rumbling, you name it, it did it! Since that day, that moment has haunted ever since. Now 8 weeks into the program, I can tell you how ridiculous it is for me to let something as trivial as that bother me...BUT IT DOES (ah the beauty of anxiety )

I make my plan of action for my worst case scenario but the thought of having to use that plan scares me.

I'm also still terrified to eat in the classroom (even though I'm starving) or just before a meeting for fear of the "talking tummy". I know I have to suck it up and do it, but it is so hard to put myself out there.

I was in 9th grade history class and Mary Soboro sitting beside me jumped in her seat when my stomach let out a loud growl. It's funny now, but I was mortified back then. And I kept that fear with me until after the MWC program. I hated silent places like church, meetings, classrooms... I couldn't control my rumbling. I still have it sometimes, but I try to relax, excuse myself, or remember to eat something prior.

Tammy