You might think this is strange but when I'm stressed and anxious, I think I might have multiple personalities. Not that I hear things or find anything to ever prove it, but my anxiety takes over and I think I did things that a normal person would not do (drive places in the middle of the night, etc). I always think that when i fall asleep i lose control, in other words my anxuety ramps up. I've had this thought on and off over the years, and I notice it increases when my hormones and stress increase.

Hi Lucie,
I too had similar thoughts like yours. I'll tell u a short story. One day my husband and I was watching Mr.Brooks. ( remember that movie) well I had to tell him to turn it off. I started having a anxiety attack b/c i thought what if i too turn like him. Oh man the rush of thinking that way made me start looking for a double personality with in myself i made myself sick that night and several nights after that.lol..... But here i am sane as ever and myself. So dont worry it's not happening. Have you gone thru the program? if u have it listen to session 8 and 10 over again until u get it and dont have those thoughts again. take care

Yeah wow...i do the same thing....like ''what if'' ya know...it comes and goes

OMG-I also freaked out after I watched that movie-too weird, or maybe this tells me that I am normal to think this. Thanks for sharing.

I feel the same way sometimes. There are times that I just want to run away. I would just drive and drive until I couldn't drive anymore! I feel like I am just outside of my body and looking in. I want to scream, but I have to hold it in until I'm alone. I have to stay tensed up because I will lose it any minute!
I guess I will have to chip away at it until I can deal with it. At least that's what I am going to try to do...

Lucie..Sounds like you are afraid to let go of the control issue...My motto is...Let go, and let God...Don't try and force yourself to fall asleep...Just allow yourself to do it...You are NOT going to get up in your sleep and go anywhere..That is just a "scary thought" and you are just scaring yourself with that thought...
You need to learn how to trust yourself. It also sounds like you are "obsessing" over your scaring thoughts, and doing the "what if" thinking...
I suggest you work on these skills in your program, until you get them down pact...
I do not believe for one minute, that you have multiple personality disorder. God Bless!!!!

This is an obsessive scary thought. Lesson 10 will deal with it if you have not gotten there yet. I've had this same obsessive scary thought. Trying to talk yourself out of obsessive scary thoughts does not work, you need to learn to ignore the thought by accepting it. It does no good to go around in circles trying to rationalize with it. Instead, just be determined to believe it to just be an object, seperate from you, just a thought, seperate it from you. Even imagine it as a seperate object, outside of your brain & body, if that helps.

What really worked for me was learning to accept the thought,

-notice it was there
-awknowledge it was a scary thought and my mind was using it was a distraction
-tell myself it is okay to have the thought, "its just a thought and it -can't hurt me."
-Then do something else, cook dinner, laundry, clean the bathroom, call a friend, etc.
-Accept that the thought was still there while I was doing the task, but remind myself that it was just a thought.

This process is a learned response and did not work overnight, but with persisitance it worked for me. I learned to get the thought and then react by saying "oh, theres that thought, so what, time to move on." I honestly never thought they would stop. It took a long time, like a over a year. And then one day I got it and realized I had not had it in months. I also listened to the lesson 10 a couple of hundred times, just to reassure myself.

You will get over this, I had every scary thought you can imagine. But my worst ones involved my mind. For example, I'm going crazy, I'm psychotic, I'm bi-polar, etc. The truth is they were all just distractions from what was really going on in my life and once I delt with that the scary thoughts stopped. Be patient, this condition can be overcome!

Rose_Thorn98 is absolutely correct. The only thing you can do is accept the scary thought and relax towards it, not tense up when it comes. Remind yourself that it is anxiety and then move on and distract yourself with doing something else. Accept it- don't run from it. IN this way it loses it's power over you. And another good point rose_thorn mentioned is listening to Obsessive scary thoughts CD every single day until you get it. Just keep listening to it until you get it- but most of all, do not run from it-tell yourself "it's just my anxiety" and it will deflate the obsessive scary thought. .. . . It worked for me. ..

Good Luck and God Bless...

Wow it seems like I am reading my own diary I am scared all the time scared of going crazy scared of losing control scared to take meds scared of mental illnesses scared of my thoughts scared I am going to lose my self scared to be alone just scared scared scared and I hate it so much I am so scared sometimes I think I am going crazy from being too scared or not being able to cope with this feeling its hard but I know I will get through this like everyone else will.

Im so happy i read this today because sometimes i feel so alone. Im 23yrs old and I've been battling depression and anxiety since 19yrs old and it hasn't been easy. I just want to live my life and have a good state of mind and my mental health, but its so hard for me. Im constantly battling the "Im going to go crazy thoughts." It really taunts me and plays with my head. I start continiously repeating my name in my mind, then i start to think next you'll have hallunication. How do i stop my mind from playing tricks on me? And stop getting scared when the thoughts come to mind? My biggest problem is just realizing it's just a thought and that it may not come true.