Hi folks,well every thing with the program is going good so far.Only problem is how do I work up the ciourageto break through the anixety wall?I mean I am doing much better.I got a job(not waht I want ot or went ot college to do) but it is a step in the right direction.I know that one day I will be free of this crap and can live life like I want.but i just want t know where to look for the help in getting over the bumps.My biggest fear is,I will be driving somewhere.And not be able to breathe.This happend to me once and I thin k is where most of this came from.It took ems over 30 min to get ot me.I know I did not die,but that thought is burned in my mind.And being a paramedic my slef.Every little twitch in my body,I can find a medical reason for needing ot have it checked ot.But that isthe way I was trained.You think think the worse and hope for the best.So if someone could please help me here.I am sick of letting this keep my in my little circle.I want my curcle to start at the north pole and end at the south pole.PLEASE HELP

Hey-you are stepping through the wall of anxiety. Sometimes it takes baby steps but steps they are! I had a really bad panic attack years ago(in my car) and though I can think about it now and not get all worked up, being in a car is one of my triggers. I guess you have to keep reminding yourself that you DID survive it, awful as it was and you now have coping skills to get you through the anxiety so you will not reach that point again. I have a post under the general topics that I think will help you titled 'Changing your perception to get past a limitation'-read it, it may help and I would love your input. Patience and acceptance are really important at this time so practice...

Take care-Silvana

want to be a race car driver?? Funny,I have been driving drag catrs since i was 15.Kinda odd.When I am in the a race car i feel no fear at all.My mind is so set on what is about ot happen that I dont have timefor fear.Now going a distance of 1/4 of a mile in 6 seconds should ,or you would think would induce massive amounts of fear into my body,but it dont.Not that I have not been in a crash or anything.(one took 15 min to cut me out of,but I was fine just stuck).It is the every day driving that I have trouble with.Example.The interstate,I am scared ot death of it.I can get on I26 at the exit by my house travil 1 mile and have to get off.Like I stated befor,my biggerst fear is,if I get into trouble will someone be there ot help befor it gets real bad.I know the only way to get over this is to go out and do it.I do go a lot more places,how ever if i feel like something is gonna happen I call a good bufddy of mine and talk to him.It kinda takes my mind off my body.I dont know if that is the right thing to do or not.Dont get me wrong I have made a vast improvment since starting the tapes,but it seems like this one is the toughtest one to do.One othetr thing that does not help,but is not a excuse.I have real bad allerries.And will every thing being stuffed up it gets into my throat andmakes it swell a little.so that feeling of choking in me is allways there.But I will take you advise and take baby steps one at a time.next wek my goal is to go more then 1 exit away on the interstate.al thothe first exit is only a mile away the next is 8 miles away.I feel it is a good goal.I am sick of this making my life choices for me.I am beign offerd a High level job in Shelby NC as a feild training officer forthere EMS.I would love to work there,but I need ot get through this wall first.Thanks again for all your help Silvana.

Matt