I am back to my old ways of worrying about what is going to happen in the future.

I am worried about getting an internship, graduating college, fitting therapy into a busy schedule when I get a "real" job.

10:38 a.m. AT WORK

JUMPING TO CONLCUSIONS

I looked at the Baruch college website and saw that they only have 3 classes listed for the summer, none of which I need.

I am very upset because I planned on only taking three classes this semester because I felt it would be too hard with the therapy transition and I get stressed out in general with too many classes. I was banking on taking a summer class to make up for lost time.

I am regretting my decision. I was already upset that I am graduating a semester late now it looks like it�s going to be even later.

Should I try to sign up for a fourth class now?

I feel like a weak person because I get stressed and anxious over minor things such as school.

tahirra --

Only you know how much stress you can handle. I took a long time to finish college -- I went full time, then cut back to working full-time and going to college part time. It was aggravating, in part because I hated my job but couldn't quit it if I wanted to finish school. I started having panic attacks (although I didn't know what they were at the time)due to all the stress.

But, I do know that if I had overextended myself, things could have been much worse. I looked at it this way, when it was apparent that I had to add a fall semester to finish my courses -- instead of graduating in May, I'll be finished in December. It's 7 months. Is 7 months worth the sanity? In my case, the answer was yes.

One thing that my advisor did for me was set up an Independent Study, where my grade was based on a semester long project that I did, a big research project. It was a 3 credit course and it helped me to fill the credit gap so that I could be finished. Is it possible you could do something like this, related to your major, over the summer? My advisor knew my situation -- working and going to school -- and was able to fit a course to my needs. I went to a very small, Catholic college so we got to know our teachers very well. Perhaps you could see if your school offers any courses in this way.

Good luck in making your decision. Try not to put too much stress on what day you graduate. It's a goal; it's not an imperative written in stone. At least you have been able to, in the presence of anxiety, set priorities and work to attain that goal. If there isn't a non-traditional means of getting your credits in by the end of this semester or the end of the summer, is it really so bad to wait a few more months?

PS -- you are not a weak person for getting stressed and anxious over school. Is school minor? As expensive as an education is nowadays, I think that putting thought into where you are & where you need to be indicates that you recognize the value of getting the education.

thank you for your encouraging words.

I put all this pressure on myself, everyone says the same thing as you.

I work also, and go to therapy, I guess i want to be able to do everything, but I have limitations like every other human being.

Feeling sad, lonely, and depressed. I am letting this scare me(anxious).
I feel like I don't knwo what to do with myself anymore because I have been in a slump since mid november.
I can't seem not to put so much focus on shcool, but I feel that I am not good at anything else, so I have to do well in school.
I want to become more indepenedent, and that means to me, getting an internship, graduating, and a full time job. ALL OF THESE THINGS SCARE ME.
I want so badly to get better, but feel STUCK, PARALYZED, AFRAID to move forward.

Negative thoughts keep floating in and out of my head..

The main one is : I HAVE NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.

I am replying to myself (seems silly) but I htink it helps me to see the words in type.

"I AM GOING TO CONTINUE TO WORK ON STRATEGIES FOR CBT (not set a time limit).

"TRY NOT TO GIVE INTO THE HOPELESSNESS."