Okay. First let me say hello to everyone. This is my very first post.

Okay, now for the good stuff (or not so good stuff). I am starting my second week with session 3. The positive self talk is seeming to take its time to sink in....which I suppose is to be expected. Since starting the program, I haven't had any really outrageous panic/anxiety episodes....until today. I am a recent graduate and therefore out in search of a great job.

Well, I landed an interview last week and was asked to come in this week for a training seminar. Well, when I arrived this morning (along with 30 others) I began to feel a little nervous, which I told myself was understandable due to only 8 open positions available with this company. Well, when it came time for everyone to introduce themselves, i began to get the sweaty palm syndrome, then my heart started racing...faster and faster......I felt like running outta the room and kissing my chance at a great job opportunity goodbye. However, i held on (thanks to the advice from Lucinda.....don't run from your panic...you are your own safe haven). By the time it was my turn, I was literally breathless. I was trying to do my breathing exercises, but it seemed the more I tried the harder it got.

The instructor of the seminar knew something was wrong and and quickly passed on to the next persons introduction. By the time everyone had said their peace, the instructor began expressing his opinion on anxiety issues......mainly staring me in the face. He basically said that people who had these issues should not apply to his company because it would look bad on him. This made me feel horrible!!! That's when the negative thoughts came rushing in. I tried telling myself that I was no different than any one else there....that I would make a great employee....that I DO have great qualities..etc.

The attack finally subsided and I was left pondering whether i would even want to consider working for someone like this....someone so insensitive to others.....someone who only thought of them self.

I am still trying to figure out where the attack came from. I am pretty sure it came from the negative thoughts walking through the dor. I.E. Will I even make the cut? Am I as smart as these other people? 30 people and only 8 spots available....

Like I said earlier, this was my first attack in 2 months. Is it normal to have lapses?

Any way, I am thinking of not going back to the seminar. Maybe this was a sign...it wasn't the job for me.

What do you think????? Any input would be great!!


Thanks for reading!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think you should go back and finish the seminar. All the new things at the job interview just brought on the attack, you need to try to face your fears or the next time it will be harder. My big stressor is my job since the guy I asked to move in and then asked to move out {in only two months} works with me and is still trying to have a physical relationship with me . I will not let someone else make me leave a job that I really love Sue

hello wynstar84....i agree with sue. don't let your negative thoughts dictate your life choices. its easier said than done, i know, but we all DO come out stronger when we face and deal with our fears. i'm still working on session 2 (haven't been consistent these past days with the program but continuing the program today) and feel so much better when i put myself out there in certain uncomfortable social gatherings. don't give up, leave that situation in the past and start fresh the next day....we're all behind you!!!