I have no idea where I am supposed to post, so your patience is appreciated. The following is a response to a letter posted on another part of the site...but the posts on that thread are so old, nothing much currently going on. So I posted it here.

I just need help and support.
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Dear goodtobehome,

I can so relate to you and your recurrent dizziness. Just when you feel like you have "made" some ground...BOOM there is the critter again.

I am having the recurrence of some of my issues as well. I have fibromyalgia, adrenal fatigue and depression. And I have hit a stump with it, All of it. Nothing seems to keep me moving forward; I move along, all seems ok then I'm right back where I started and I am backpeddling like hell.

I have reached the point where I'm ready to give up...exercise, taking my supplements, trying to be positive. WHY?

Negative, you say...yep. I have a doc who doesn't believe in Adrenal Fatigue (Eat small meals of protein she says...with NO appetite!)and a Nutripath who is treating me for Heavy Metal Poisoning (Copper/Aluminum)who is well aware of the fear caused by copper/aluminum overload BUT who is a cold fish and wants my money for the supplements which cost too much. Detox is awful and makes you terribly sick and all he can say is "you didn't get this way overnight...and you won't get well overnight".

Meanwhile I am in constant pain that I can't even take tylenol for due to blown discs in my neck and back! I can't take even ibuprophen because of my two bloodpressure meds and nothing for depression due to my thyroid med! So basically all I have to fight this terrifying ordeal with is my mind!

I hear over and over on the site "CHange your thinking" and I understand that I need to but NOWHERE on Lucinda's CDs do I find HOW to do that. Change them to what, I say?

So here I sit (Gawd I hate feeling sorry myself)feeling alone, isolated and LOST, totally lost. Regretfully, I remember my son's childhood and all the things I couldn't or wouldn't do for him or with him because I was caught up in my own Bull. My husband has a life, my son' is now 20 (with his own copper/aluminum inheritance from me)and his own life and here I sit, disabled by my own thinking and blaming myself. I have No interest in ordinary housework, or going out, I am sabotaging myself at every turn. And below it all is the tiredness, whether of adrenal fatigue/depression/lack of exercise or what, who knows. The only time I come alive is when they are home and only because I feel guilty about not caring for things.

I hate being this way, guys! I don't remember if I ever enjoyed anything, certainly that I could do now. I used to be quite an intelligent and talented person; now all I do is minimal housework, worry about killing myself smoking at the kitchen table (I chain smoke, now)and nap until they get home. I volunteer for stuff to have outside interests and then when it comes time, I don't have the energy, don't feel well or don't want to put myself thru the stress of getting ready to go...no one will miss me anyway, right? And then I feel horrible because I didn't go and resent the fact that everyone else did and had fun! THAT'S sick stuff! But I do it on a regular basis. And I hate home...being at home by myself, nothing but housework to do but I resist doing anything different!

I don't like myself very much right now! I'm 59 and I've lost 50 lbs from the adrenal fatigue AND most of that is muscle, so my skin just hangs on me. My wrinkles have wrinkles. And when I try to eat, I am bored with what I have and still I buy the same things...gagging down every bite. And yet I know that I lose more muscle and strength if I don't eat.

I am out of control and my life has become unmanageable. So please don't tell me what I need to do...tell me what YOU do to help yourself, instead. That helps me more.

Thanks,
H.B.D.

Herebedragons
What I have been doing every morning for the last couple of weeks has been keeping a journal of things that I want to do that day. Today I am going to be Happy etc. Sounds kind of lame but it works for me. It puts me in a better state of mind and makes me think of good things
Mark P