HI EVERYONE,
I AM NEW HERE AND I STARTED THE PROGRAM IN AUGUST. I HAVE NOT BEEN DILIGENT DUE TO VACATIONS AND OBLIGATIONS BUT I REALLY WANT TO GET THE HELP I NEED. I AM A WORRIER AND I COM EFROM A LONG LINE OF THEM. MY MOTHER HAS GENERALIZED ANXIETY AND HAS BEEN AN UNHAPPY PERSON MOST OF MY LIFE. I AM 56 AND I AM NOT UNHAPPY BUT I TYHINK TOO MUCH AND AM GOOD TO EVERYONE BUT MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE THIS IS ALL JUST A WEAKNESS AND IT MAKES ME ANGRY THAT I HAVE THIS, TOO. I KNOW THIS IS NOT TRUE, I AM A NURSE, BUT THIS IS HOW I HAVE ALWAYS VIEWED IT. MY MOTHER WAS NOT ABLE TO PERTICIPATE IN ALOT OFF MY CHILDHOOD DUE TO HER CONSTANT FEARS. AS A CHILD MY DAD WAS THE ONE THAT WE ALL HAD FUN WITH.
I TOOK THE TEST ON THE WEBSITE AND I KNEW I WAS ANXIETY RIDDLED BUT I STILL GOT ANGRY WHEN I SAW MY SCORE. NOW I AM STUCK AND I NEED A BOOST TO SEE THAT I AM NOT THE FAILURE THAT I FEEL I MUST BE.
DID ANYONE ELSE FEEL LIKE THIS AFTER THE TEST? I DO NOT FEEL DEPRESSED AND I LIVE A VERY FUN LIFE AND LAUGH ALOT, REALLY LAUGH, BUT IF YOU GIVE ME A SECOND I MIGHT THINK OF SOMETHING THAT WILL UPSET ME, LIKE A NEW SYMPTOM I HAVE. I HATE THAT AND BEING A NURSE DOES NOT HELP! YES I AM A CONTROL FREAK AND I CAN DO SOMETHING BETTEER AND MORE EFFICIENTLY THAN ANYONE ELSE, DOES THIS ALL SOUND FAMILIAR?
WELL THANKS FOR YOUR INSIGHT, I WILL GET BACK TO MY TAPES AND START MY JOURNEY, AGAIN.
JOYCE P.

Joyce your in the right place welcome and relax I have been in the program for 5 weeks and have never felt more at peace you find a friend any time you need one right here online

Thanks for the encouragement. I am really struggling. Session 3 has been hard, I am a negative thinker and it is hard to stop, I don't always know that I am doing it. I have started realizing what is happening alittle better. I just listened to session 4 and that was a real eye opener for me, I am in need of all of this help!! I will keep working but it is not pretty to discover some of this about yourself, Huh??? Jp