listening to week 2 seem to feel alot more hope of getting control of all this i put myself threw. I for get so offen to put my tools from this program to work i end up useing them but never at the begining of or threw intil the light goes off in my head. hope to talk at anyone who wants to talk.

i just started two weeks ago also i have to keep reviewing because i forget what i read i am having problems with getting out i get anxiety all day i am believing the lord for the strength to overcome this just as He has helped me with everything else in my life

anyone out there that just started that has seen progress especially if you have been house bound

Progress has been good! I am doing week 3 today. I have been feeling A LOT better already. I notice symptoms and start the breathing. That is one thing I have noticed already, when I get anxious I quit breathing! It wasn't until this program that I realized that I have to make a concious effort to breath when I am on edge! That alone has helped TONS!

I have been VERY productive this week, especially in starting my new business. Before I had spent a month on the couch just being BLAH... but now I am getting really excited! I still have issues with sleep (going to and then waking up) But during the day I am feeling better about myself and my life and where I am. I am learning to value the present moment and this week I have been LOVING THAT! If I am working on now, i.e. setting up my business, taking care of the house, etc, then I don't have time to waste on my past or what may happen in the future.

Beginning of week 2 I felt HORRIBLE. Worse than when I began the program. Week 3 I am feeling better than I have in a long time...ALREADY!

This is going to be exciting~

Its incredible to learn that WE create this problem. I cant believe that I am doing this to myself! The program is working. The breathing and the relaxation cd has helped a lot. I hope I get better.

Hi this boni i just going in 2 leson i ben thinking about i thot that i was a victim but autily is me it is hard but some how it make sense this no easy no wondwe i feel so guilty all the time thanks boni

Hi,I am in Session #2 Day 3 but this is my first posting. The first time when I logged in to introduce myself (about a week ago) I almost had a full blown panic attack in front of computer. It really opened a can of worms for me.I was about to EXPOSE myself publicly. The jury was out to condemn me and the verdict was - total abandonment. You are a failure, a fraud and you do not deserve any better. Don't bother!
You can see that 7 days of listening to relaxation tape, going along with the program, walking 4 km a day and a bit of positive thinking worked. I am actually writing about it and I am smiling too. What made me actually do it, was the thought, that there are probably more people like me who can not bring themselves to just say hello. My name is so and so and I am a nutcase who....whatever .. has an anxiety and panic disorder.
My name is G.(short form of long foreign name). Sorry for long introduction.

G.
I am glad you decided to join the discussion board. It sounds like things are going so much better. I have felt lots of abandoment and failure in my life. But we now I have learned I deserve better. I am just finishing week three and I am working hard to talk postively about myself. One step at a time and we will make a big change.
Theresa

G,
WHOOHOO! Wonderful! See you did it, and we are happy for you. I can understand the nervousness of posting on chat sites, I am an aspiring writer and I was asksed to join some writing groups and also a critique group about a year ago, I seriously threw upin my office garbage can I was so nervous, not joking! So I get telling people about yourself is the hardest thing to do. We are our own worst critics, but yet, nobody really notices but us! I am proud of you and hope you post often, even if its just to say "Hi! Im feeling out of wack today!" We would love to get to know you!

Hi everybody, thank you for your kind comments.
I hope you are making a progress and feeling a bit better. Every day is a new challenge. I am feeling a positive shift in my little world. I am more relaxed, love my walks, enjoy the moments of being in the PRESENT, "I can not change the past but I can change present" - works like a magic for me. I have been constantly drifting in my thoughts, rehashing the past or anticipating future.
I had a panic attacked on a subway yesterday. I could not control myself at all. All I wanted to do was to run but I could not. I sat there sweaty with the empty head and read the card "Deal with Panicky Feelings" over and over. Positive self-talk ? I was NOT there, nobody to talk to.
Breathing exercise? How can you do that in the public transit? Most of my panic attacks are in the public spaces. How am I going to apply the rules? It will be a challenge. I felt bewilderment but surprisingly I was not devastated or disappointed. And this is already an improvement for me. Hopefully next time I will do a little bit better.
It would be very interesting to hear from you about your baby steps and challenges.. Thanks, G.

I just started week two now also takes me a lot to comprehend everything but i have been driving a little to work but when im at work thats when the real hardship starts for me'

GSK, My biggest issue has been panic attacks mostly when I am driving to work. I have found that relaxation breathing and specific self talk works. Even if you modify the breathing while you are in public places it works. Simply focus on slowing down your breathing, getting enough o2 and not shallow breathing. That will make a difference. The self talk I focus on: It's only anxiety and will pass. I won't pass out or have a heart attack. And Panic attacks can't hurt me. All help. And most importantly remember to Float through it! Good luck!

G,
I would have a panick attack if I had to ride a subway! LOL! I thinks its great you did what you could at the time! You read your card, you tried to breath and keep focused, and its ok, if it didnt all happen at once and its ok it wasnt the perfect situation to calm down in, you did awesome just trying and making the effort! Yes, you have it right, baby steps, I found this to be so helpful, in going through this program, not the big picture, but small achievemnets each week. You know what I did last week three days in a row, I took my puppy for a walk in my neighborhood by myself!! Now you may think so what, but this huge for me! My neighborhood is out in the country it is safe and nice, very clean.The roads are complex and weave in and out for a variety of excellant walking areas, but I am afraid to walk by myself, "What if?" a stranger stops and trys to hurt me or "What if" a big dog comes out and trys to chase the puppy. So I have had a very unrealistic fear of my neighborhood and last week I walked the 10 blocks around without any issues! first time in three years!

JmGiz,thank you for the reply.I envy you already ,a nice,calm country setting and a puppy (who is she/he??). I am a big dog's lover. It is great that you managed to walk around with your puppy. I wish you many happy walks with your puppy. I am pretty sure that the strangers who might approach you, will be more interested in talking to your puppy or about your puppy or about their own pooches. The dogs are great ice breaker. I've made many friends on my solitary walks with my dog. The dogs fights is another matter. They do not happen too often but when it cames to it you will do whatever has to be done. Do not worry about it.It happened to me only once that I was on my knees with my arms streched, trying to separate two furry beats, just in the middle of the road.Ha,ha. Enjoy your walks. G.

RickNY,
thanks.I wish that my panic attacks happen in more confined settings, not in the public like on the subway, in the restaurants, interviews etc. where it is more dificult to deal with the situation. You are more on display and surrounded by other people. Good news is that I have been doing much better at least on subway.G.