I have been working with week two and still does everything. My panic attacks have increased, but when I catch myself with shallow breathing I try to slow it down. I tend to hold my breath alot with my anxiety increases. My morning today was alright, but someone at work bought in a lasagna for everyone to have yesterday. So I planned on having that for lunch. But sure enough someone wanted to go out for lunch. It a kind of a dive and don't particularly like it. I usually just go along cause everyone else goes. But this is when the attacks started to get bad. I didn't feel like a was very present at all during the meal. I tried to focus on the conversation, but I was to preoccupied by the people to the other tables. We had a corner table and my back was to everyone. I think I suffer alot from social anxiety as well, by the way. I tried to ignore my body symptoms. But every time someone would or something I would like they were laughing at me or knew what I was thinking. But the time we were finished I was totally pissed off and wanted to hurt everyone in the place. I tried to walk out with the most evil look, to show my disdain and disgust for the place, but it only made my feel worse. I calmed down some in the afternoon and was able to finish the relatively panic free, there were a couple of pretty high times of anxiety. Then I left work and picked something up to eat a I could believed how many times I was cut off on the way home. I told myself I really genuinely hate people. I kept driving an I was almost home and I told myself I want to die. I felt this wholeheartedly and broke down I was able to make it home. The was able to give a full release. My roommate took notice and tried to help, but I could even look at him. I left a message for my therapist and call the crisis connection. The CC asked some questions and asked if I was getting help or see a doctor, more to the point I have been out of Alprazalam for almost a week. She suggested I call the pharmaist and refill the meds. I did some yoga and here I am.

In Aug I had a pretty sever panic attached that led my to getting the program. I think the attached was coupled with a flahback of when I used to take drugs. I know I am not on them, but the body symptoms that I feel I almost I like I am still on them. I this stupid? Can anyone relate or know of anyone who can?
I also think a get migraine because of all the anxiety. Does any have any suggest for migraines?????????

Hoping for a better tomorrow

I understand how you feel. Most people starting the program experiance more anxiety and panic because they are finally realizing a lot about themselves which can produce more anxiety and this is normal but the good news is it will pass as you progress with the program. You bouts of anger should also subside with the program. I used to have migraines everyday all day so much so that i almost threw up and had tunnel vision. I was crippled couldnt do anything and the only thing that significantly improved my headaches was a sinus and scalp massage. VERY HELPFUL. You are not alone. Remember it JUST ANXIETY AND IT ALWAYS PASSES. Things WILL get better for you. Hang in there. Due to the flashbacks i dont personally get them but know people who do ...so i know what you are talking about.

You don't drown by falling in the water, you drown by staying there..~ERIN