hello out there! just here going through a growth spurt and was wondering if anyone has this problem. i put this in the obsessive thoughts section because i think that it what i am doing. i went through a growth spurt xmas 2002 and it most of my problems were obsessive thoughts. i felt like i couldnt feel anything about my loved ones and it scarred me to death. i pulled myself out and realized that i was stressing and that i should be worried if i wasnt upset about this. i came out of it great and was feeling fine. i had a little bit of panic then but nothing that i couldnt handle. this time its all panic all the time. i was thinking that it seems like its one or the other for me, but i think i may be obsessing about the panic attacks, which in turn are causing them to be there waiting to attack at any moment. i had a good day yesterday and told myself that i would today, but in the evening my girls asked me to drive them to the mall so they could shop and go to a movie. i wasnt thrilled cause they are only 16 and 13 and its night time. i dropped them off and started concentrating on my breathing. not panicing just deep heavy breathing until my chest felt soo heavy and i was getting light headed. i never really paniced tho. when i got home my husband is trying to talk to me but i am really beating myself up saying i wish i was normal like everyone else. the thought of going on a trip far from home scares me cause what it i get panicky and i cant relax. how can someone be normal two months ago and then be in this mess that i cant clean up. does anyone have any advise on how not to obsess about the panic attacks. it just makes the body symptoms come and i feel like i just cant control it. thoughts are easy to deal with, this is different. help if you can . thanks lc

sorry i posted this in the wrong section. lc