HELP!! Maybe you can't but I need to get this off my mind.

I have some severe health issues and live daily with chronic pain. I am at such a low activity level it is difficult for me to sweep or mop or stand and do dishes. I have been this way for years now and it is only getting worse.

I have tried and tried and only failed to get on the right eating and exercise regimen and even with doctors warnings I can never seem to get over the hump to doing anything consistantly in this area.

Stupid thing about this is that I know it is the very key to my health. I am severely sugar sensitive but can't seem to break from it even as 2 year old I was stealing candy. Before I became sick I was a very high energy person, fast thinking, mover and talker. I know the real me under here would be a non stop person all day and night......thus the anxiety and panic I am sure. My health is holding me back and something else is as well but I do not know what.

I want to get better so badly but the fear of pain in trying to do anything and my sugar addiction wins out every time.....

Can anyone relate or do they have suggestions other than hiring a hit man to follow me around with a taser all day? Not funny..

are there any activities that your health does allow you to do? I know your condition is very painful, and I just wish you could do everything your mind wishes. Maybe write, or paint, or whatever your body allows you to do that your mind can dream of doing. Keep dreaming and know how wonderful you are inside of your body, shine on from the inside out!!