I am on week 4 and spent the first part of the week fighting the fact that I have to change the way I think and not expect so much from other people. I was angry because of course I do not like being told I am wrong or I need to change.

This was the hardest week since starting the program and I am afraid I am going to need the medication to help me get through it.

I have some good days where I make goals for myself and evaluate whether or not I am being reasonable or overreacting. Saturday I totally overreacted and had a meltdown. My kids have told me that they see me unhappy alot because I cry alot good day or bad! On the other hand I am sleeping well enough, eating good and have days I am successful these are usually the days I have confidence in myself.

I am petrified that I will need medication. Is this something I can overcome without it??

YES YOU CAN DO THIS!! Being on or off medicine is perfectly fine. It is only week four and we are just starting to really learn the tools we need to overcome anxiety. Does it really matter if you are on medication? Is this a high expectation you are putting onto yourself? Once I let go of all the anxiety about my medication I found to be much less stressed. I ended up not even having to take medication. I always thought that having to overcome anxiety meant no meds because thats "perfect". I soon realized that meds or no meds, nothing is perfect. Keep working and do what you can in the program, it sounds like you are, just try not to lose faith. It will work and you can do it.