I am still obessessing about school and my future, eventhough I know i can't control thee things.
I cried today, I feel like i am not doing a good job at the program, therapy, or school.
I wanto quit verything, but I know that is not the answer.

Hi Tahirra!
I used to feel like you currently feel. It's difficult and daunting to take on all the areas of one's life at once. But, I assure you if you stick with the program, you will see positive changes. I don't know if you are on Lesson 4, but around that time, I felt bad also. I am now on Lesson 11 and feel great!! Anxiety is tough and everyone on the forum has been through it and many have already recovered. So, keep checking in here and you're bound to feel better. People on this forum are really encouraging. I wish I had magic words to make you feel better, but all I can say is that the magic is inside you. The Lessons that I listen to week after week are 3, 7, and 9. Those seem to help me the most and pinpoint the things that make me anxious. Maybe those would be helpful. Lesson 3 is pivotal.

You want to recover and believe in yourself or you wouldn't be taking a chance with this program. You're on your way. Just remind yourself of the accomplishments you do on a daily basis big or small. They mean a lot and might make the whole task of thinking about school and life less daunting. I wish you the best in the hours and days ahead. You can do it and will do it. There's no doubt!!

thank you for the words of encouragement, I greatly appreciate the time you took out to respond to my concerns.

Hi Tahirra!
It was my pleasure. Anytime.....

Hi Tahirra,

You absolutely have control over these things. They will get easier. Just work on one thing at a time. No one is perfect and doing a good job is different for everybody. For me doing a good job has been to drive a 30 miles by myself. That would mean absoultely nothing to my sister who has no problems with such a thing. Just keep doing the best you can and you will inevitably feel better.

Life is always happening. No matter what you are doing you ARE learning something from what you going through. You will look back and observe that. I have felt the same way you do. Opportunities will continue to present themselves and one day you will choose to go with one that will work out great for you. Be patient with yourself. You are headed in the right direction.

Sail

I dropped the classes I was supposed to take this summer and I feel really bad about it. I am beating myself and getting more depressed.

Hi Tahirra!
I dropped law school classes I was supposed to take this summer also and to me, I needed a chance to feel better. I was feeling miserable last semester and not accomplishing much anxiety recovery and the thought that I don't have to be in school has alleviated the worry and concern. Did I make the decision from a place of anxiety? Sure. Am I glad I made the decision? You bet! This summer is not the time to do more law school. It's the time to take a break because my mind and body need me.

I say all this because I hope you find that the decision you made is because other things (like anxiety recovery) need your attention more than school. If you want to eventually go back, you will. Maybe now is not a good time. I think it's important to let yourself quit something to realize that it's what you needed and nothing more. It's not forever. It's for now. You can enroll in the fall when you feel better. Right now, your body and mind need your primary attention. No shame in taking care of yourself!

Well, I cheated, I skipped ahead on these lesson topics. But, saw the name of this thread, and just needed to jump in.

I'm on lesson two, so still have many to go through. I struggle daily/hourly/every minute with my overwhelming feelings that there is no hope and I have completely failed as a businessperson/mother/partner. I find it so hard to enjoy the "precious present moments." All I think about is the huge amount of money that is now gone from my family because of business failure. I find it hard to believe I can ever rebuild what we once had. I constantly beat up on myself for being overweight and undesirable. I worry I have not done enough for my children and worry about them being adults and gone in a few years. (Man, I'm a mess!)

How can hope be regained? How can I ever trust myself again? Where can I reclaim my motivation?

Wow, big questions...but thanks for letting me throw them out there.

I AM ON WEEK 8 BUT I SAW THE TOPIC & HAD TO CHECK IT OUT. I WAS DOING BETTER BUT THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS HAVE BEEN A HECTIC TIME FOR ME & I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO DEVOTE THE TIME NEEDED TO THE PROGRAM OR MYSELF. I HAVE ALSO BEEN FEELING LIKE A FAILURE AT BEING A MOM, WIFE & PERSON IN GENERAL. EVERYONE AROUND ME SEEMS TO HANDLE THE STRESSES OF LIFE SO MUCH BETTER THAN I DO & THEY DON'T SEEM TO NEED "DOWNTIME" LIKE I DO. WHICH MAKES ME FEEL VERY GUILTY FOR NEEDING THAT TIME. I ALSO ENDED UP GETTING SICK WHICH MADE ME DEPRESSED BECAUSE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON IT WAS THE LAST THING I NEEDED. I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT THINGS WILL SETTLE DOWN & I CAN GET BACK ON TRACK AGAIN.I'M SORRY I DON'T HAVE ANY ADVICE TO OFFER BUT AT LEAST YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

tahirra,

You can take your time with life.... you don't have to rush or pressure yourself to be or do anything other than who you are.

Although you may feel like a failure, this doesn't mean it's so.

Feelings are only a reflection of what you've been telling yourself. Take a hard look at what you've been saying to yourself and you will be able to take action against those thoughts that are causing you to feel so badly.

Be true to yourself. Good things happen in time with patience and perseverance. Very rarely does anything good ( worth of any value ) happen overnight....

Less is definately more !!! Let the pressure off and you will find your life begin to take better shape.

I wish you the best in your recovery!

This alll makes sense to me, but my mind is spinning right now. I want to at least make it ot the end of the semester....NEED TO FOCUS ON THE here and now, having issues with that!