OK now im not looking for sympathy or anything but i am having a hard time with this lesson. When it asks what deserve, well i feel like i dont deserve a whole lot i feel like a fat, ugly,disgusting,bad person, and i dont feel like im worth a whole lot. Sometimes i feel thats why i dont have a very good marraige and thats why i have no friends. I dont know how to fix this.

Jennifer

You have been reinforcing the negative thoughts for so long that you began to believe them. Start by giving yourself compliments. Did you vacuum? Tell yourself that you did and good job and the house looks nice? Did you walk? Tell yourself that you are taking care of yourself and pat yourself on the back. ANything positive is worth telling yourself, even if you doh't always believe it. You need to reinforce the positive things now. Change is possible but it takes time. You can do it. God loves you no matter what. Period. Reena

I think that everybody with anxiety has a problem with self-esteem, myself included. I remember that I used to ask everyone how to build up self-esteem. I never really got an answer. What has helped me was start by working on my confidence. Like Reena said, pick something that you have done, no matter how small you think the accomplishment is and give yourself a big 'ol pat on the back for it, saying things like, wow, I did a good job on that. Do something nice for yourself, like soak in a bubble bath, do your nails, what ever would make you feel good. Then start saying positive things about yourself to yourself. I have even wrote things on little post it notes and stuck them to the mirror in my bedroom. Things like, I am a compassionate person, I am worthy, I like myself. Even if I wasn't convinced of these things at the time, just seeing them made me feel better and I admit it, a little special. It is amazing how powerful the mind is and what it can do. It took us years of speaking negatively about ourselves to convince ourselves of these things. It will take some time to change those thoughts around. You can do it. I have read some of your posts on this forum, and I believe that you are a kind and very compassionate person. So see, there are two nice things that you can start saying to yourself! Hang in there, it will get easier.