I have been planning this trip for 2 years now, and it's finally here. While planning it I always thought it would be no problem, and it wasn't until yesterday, 2 days before leaving that I started getting pains in my stomach, and couldn't sleep at all last night. I have been on xanax for 6 or 7 years, although I don't take them much, usually about 5 or 6 times a month if that in a very small dosage. This trip involves a two hour flight, and we are staying for 8 days. Like I said, it sounded good when I was planning it, and still does, but boy is my body paying the price. I have tried the relaxation techniques, but still feel very anxious. I know a huge part is rest, and like I say I haven't gotten much of that lately. Being the father of three I feel a bit foolish with these feelings, and I want so badly for everything to be right for my kids. I think I have put extra pressure on myself, but that is nothing new for me. I have been on the program for a month, and it seems better, but I feel like I just ran head first into a brick wall, and boy does it hurt. I just went to my yearly cardiolist visit, and he said I am doing great, BP 120/60, and to have a ball on vacation. Easier said than done, I am still afraid I will have a heart attack. Since I have never had one this is Stupid I know! Thanks for listening.

Hello looking,

You sound like you have a positive outlook. I understand exactly how you feel. continue with your positive thoughts (a must!) and take the Xanax and you will be just fine.

Have a great trip.

looking up ,

Some of what you are feeling is excitement-that is what you need to tell yourself. The truth is that most is excitement.. You are going to have those weird feelings but let yourself flow through them and know that they won't hurt you..You will not go crazy or lose control..Worst case is a panic attack and I'm sure you have made it through many of those and survived .. You had you heart checked out so don't let yourself think in that direction.. You are going to have fun and enjoy yourself...

This is from someone who has been there and has persevered..I have come a long ways..All in thanks to the program, my practice time and letting myself beleive I CAN and I can..Push through the feelings and know that they can't hurt you ...

Take care and if you need more from me I'm more than happy to help you out

Thanks guys...it is comforting to know there are others with the same feelings. You are right...I am sure it all excitement...I just keep thinking of what we will do when we get there...Catch you on the way back...now Mickey, here I come.