Each morning I spend a significant amount of time fighting fears, worry, angst, etc. I am moving around all the time to distract myself all the while thinking that I'm not thinking positive, why can't I think positive, I am going to be this way for the rest of my life. These thoughts are racing thru my mind until I finally break down and cry. Afterwards I feel a little better, but wonder when the next attack will come. I recently have undergone surgeries and have fears of obstructions coming back, since they can. Is this breakdown just like letting it wash over or am I nuts?

I feel like that in the morning too....just stick with the program......