I started session 3 last week, didn't get very far. I am starting over this week, I have more time this week so hopefully I'll fare better. This one is going to be really hard this is my Achilles' heel. I have never really believed in myself. I have been doing this to myself for as long as I can remember. Many times it seems like I do things just to spite myself maybe I do it just to prove to myself that I am really the looser I keep telling myself I am. There are times too when I feel so depressed and I don't even know why. Fortunately they pass sometimes the same day sometimes a few days or even a week or more but they do pass. The longer ones are happening less but they are so intense sometimes.

I think most with anxiety / depression had a low self esteem and low self confidence. I definatley know I did! I thougth I was dumb, a loser, a person that had nothing good to say, all dumb things came out of my mouth. I struggled with that lesson too. I told mysleef though that it was OK if I took longer than 1 week on the lesson. I took 2-3 weeks on most lessons. Some lessons will be like that, but KNOW that you CAN complete each and every lesson. If it takes 4 weeks, that so be it! Know that it is and will be just fine.

May I also suggest a GREAT book called "Self Esteem" by Patrick Fanning and Matthew McKay. There is also a workbook to it called "The Self Esteem Companion;Simple Excercises to help you challenge you inner critic & celebrate your personal strengths". (amazon.com has both) The book really help this former self verbal and thought mutilator, goodness I was rotten to me! The book was what I needed to really work on that aspect as I did not beleive in me and was worth every penny!

I too took longer on that lesson and have struggled (still do but not as bad) with self esteem. I just started an excellent book by Joyce Meyer called "How to Succeed at Being Yourself." I think you'd find it very helpful.
Liz, it's hard to imagine you struggling that way. You're such a great person to look up to now. I admire you and the advice you give in your many posts.

LOL! Thanks Barb! But that is why came here, got the program. I completed the program in spring 2006. Really I was complete self critial, a perfectionist and IF I did not acheive that perfection in my perception OH GOODNESS, I got that tongue spiced up and my mind primed up and really gave it to myself... sometimes for hours...sometimes it would be for DAYS just dwelling on what stupid thing I did or said. Yes Barb, I was not nice to me. BTW, I LOVE Joyce! She complete ROCKS! I try to watch her nightly, but at times do not catch her due to homework. Hope you are doing well!