Just realized in church today that no one can make me feel anything unless I give them permission to, and God I suppose could, but doesn't. Its my choice.

The reason I felt that way is because I take what people say up front way too personally. I feel sort of inadequate, and judged. No ones saying it but me. I'm just sensitive to things. Its really a matter of how I feel about myself.

Somehow I need to like who I am no matter what anyone else thinks says or does. And I'm working on it. I know I've heard this before, but today for some reason its sinking in more.

Also that I don't believe I will 'suffer' from anxiety and depression for the rest of my life. I don't believe people who believe that's true. I've come to the point where I trust myself more than I do doctors therapists or others. I am here to get rid of anxiety and depression, not manage it at a certain level and say oh well, I'm just going to have to put up with it, because I have an anxiety disorder, and I should just accept it...My current therapist is suggesting things like this and I disagree. I like the guy, but I'm probably on my way out. There's not much to gain there.

Best wishes,

Deb