Have any of you had the race thought of just throwing life all away then know you wouldn't because you love life..then feel crazy for even thinking that way then wondering why you would even have such a thought come in? It's like a roller coaster because it's hard to understand and it's scary that it ever came to mind..thanks for any insight...4mom

Hello Sandra....we all understand to one extent or another. For myself...I find that there are times when I know I love life and all it has to bring and then times when I will let my mind wander and yes if can be very frightening. i have been down in the dumps for a while but i honestly think that what we suffer with is a test that is placed before us and we emerge stronger in the end. what you need to do when these thoughts arise is replace them....this will take some meditation and positive self-talk as you will hear quite frequently. have a great day and many blessings to you.
*Josh*

DEar Sandra,
I am very familiar with that thought. Then I often get upset for having it. I am very impatient sometimes and every day I wish to be just happy or what I perceive is normal like everyone else. It is hard and can be done. This is what i have to tell myself regularly.

I often have thoughts of hurting my kids, sometimes even my wife. But then I start to realize that life would not be worth living if they were not in my life. And the idea of me taking thier life makes it that much worse. Having the thought is one thing...acting on the thought is another. I often laugh to myself (sometimes out loud) when I have homicidle thoughts and I say to myself:"I wouldn't do something like that". Just keep telling yourself that you would never. Take a couple of deep breaths and relax.

Do you know that most of us who have this anxiety are prone to these thoughts. I had them before when i first started with these episodes i get and they do eventually go away. I did get the what if thinking like the gentleman before had. I am so afraid of these thoughts and do depress me as well. I remember when I first had them at the begining I never told any one becuase I thought they were going to send me to jail and lock away the key. I know now that I am not the only one who has these thoughts. They are just thoughts they are not me nor who I am I am a loving caring person and so are you. It is just our huge imagination we have the goes wild. Deep down inside we are nothing like these thoughts or feelings. Have faith take it a day at a time and they will go away. Dont feed into them. God Bless. dulcecm