So how did everyone make out? I began the session not knowing really if I have panic attacks. Now I recognize those times during the day that are actually panic attacks and I realize they have been with me for years and I just never knew they had a name. What an empowering feeling. The next session is going to be interesting, self talk is a big down fall of mine.

I finished yesterday as well. I don't know if I "feel" ready to move on but the book says to do so anyway. I am worried becasue there are a couple of steps I am not doing yet that I know I need to and I am having a hard time with, like journaling I just can't seem to start its like I am scared to put in writing what I am thinking then it will become real. I am also scared that someone will read it and know how I really feel. Does that make since to anyone.

Well here is to session 3.

I will finish tomorrow and found that I have had quite a few PAs this week. I just finished having one because I couldn't remember how to make a calendar on the computer and was freaking out because I should know this stuff and why do I forget so easily and what is wrong with me kind of stuff. Thank God my husband is very calm because I needed that! It just seemed really weird to me that I listened to everyone talking about their PAs and then I made mine worse. I am starting a new job next week so that is probably the source of my anxiety. Isn't that what we are supposed to do? Accept and then identify? Maybe I am getting more out of this session than just more PAs. I am looking forward to #3 and learning how to stop telling myself how ridiculous and stupid I am.
The journaling is the easy part for me. Listening to the tapes is more difficult but I get it done. I feel like I am missing a step though.
Good luck with #3!!!!!

I am just getting into session 2. I have listened to the tape once. I continue to use my relaxation tape that has been so helpful. I am not one to slow down ever and the relaxation tape makes me do so. What I am becoming aware of is how long I have been suffering with anxiety and bouts of depression. I would have never done this type of soul searching and becoming honest with myself if I had not started this program. For the first time in my life I believe it is okay to have this type of disorder. I also have been someone to not want to take any medication and am currently on Zoloft. I always felt that if you had to take depression medication you were alittle out there. I always felt I was above that. This disorder has been very humbling for me.

So many posts right here let me know that I am among friends. I really struggle with writing in the journal, and also don't want anyone to read it--with some fears from the past. I like so much the support given from members who have participated for longer times, and new to the program. It was very difficult for me to take any meds as well, and I also thought I would never need such. Let's all encourage one another to continue with each session. I fell asleep this past week with one relaxation tape--guess I took it too seriously! LOL

Hi! I think you can rip your journal entry up right when you finish. Then nobody will have the chance to see it

k, I Just have to say some of these pictures yall send, scare me. What's the deal. and by the way. Ineed help w/ session 2.

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and by the way. Ineed help w/ session 2.

What do you need help with. I am here for ya as much as I can be.

I just listened to Session 2 today and realized that my panic attacks come in the form of nausea, headaches, dizziness, and fluttery tummy. I didn't realize what was happening until I started journalling. I had one yesterday right before going for a run. My husband asked, "What do you have to be anxious about?" and it got me thinking. I realized I was worried I wouldn't be able to run for the full 25 minutes since I haven't gone running for about 8 days. My fear of failure almost tricked me into not going! My perfectionism has gone from negative self-talk (obvious and direct) to subtle and sneaky physical symptoms that give me an excuse NOT to go! The same thing has been happening before work, even though I really enjoy my job and co-workers.

First of all,
Each person goes at thier own pace with the program,, I think they just mean, dont take 6 months to do one lesson.. If you dont completely get it,, stay on it a couple of more days, try to do the action assignments,then move forward.. Lesson 2 and 3 are very important ones for most everyone.. Im so glad yall are helping each other!!! Wonderful to see,, Nelly

I too will be finishing in a coule of days and I do not like journaling because it does make it seem more real. Facing the reality at this point has me even more anxious. I'm trying to coax myself into walking right now. I will do it.

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Originally posted by Vegasmomof4:
I finished yesterday as well. I don't know if I "feel" ready to move on but the book says to do so anyway. I am worried becasue there are a couple of steps I am not doing yet that I know I need to and I am having a hard time with, like journaling I just can't seem to start its like I am scared to put in writing what I am thinking then it will become real. I am also scared that someone will read it and know how I really feel. Does that make since to anyone.

Well here is to session 3.

Hello. I am nearing the end of session 2 as well. I find it difficult to stick to the exercising. I just don't get that HIGH that is talked about. I feel tired and just yuck! Where is the HIGH??? And then I thinks something is wrong with me or I did it "wrong"..you know, all the negative stuff. Sigh, it is a ... struggle.

The journal is okay, and I note what I eat and how I feel afterwards. I note work stuff... I work from home...and it shows me I actually work a lot more than I thought I had!!

I re-read the workbook and honestly...it was like I never read it the first time!!!

If I had a suggestion to the program... add someone reading the workbook to the tapes. I like being read to. It is soothing and would work with the book.

And... add some sort of audio aid for exercising...like the meditation. It could just be audio.. but like.."okay now stand up and reach for the sky, breathe in... exhale... now try to touch your toes... great! " You know...nothing super hard but enough to get us moving a bit and encouraged to move. Or just stretching... that would help, I think.

It would help me, I know that much.

I must say, I think in some way this stuff is helping me. I find the self pep talks weird but hey, since no one else is doing it, when I feel blue... better to feel stupid and weird than in that awful dark void.

the past three days were good to me so I feel okay today, but I don't feel so confident about when the normal people that make me beat myself up are around again...what then? I know I can't think about it too much or I will start to stress out.

breath, right?

Good luck to everyone going to Session 3, and remember, you are not alone. You start feeling bad... jump on line here... after you do your steps....LOL And although I have not tried it...it says in the book you can call them...at the Center. Maybe give that a try??

also, just an idea.... if privacy is a concern...maybe make a password protected file on your PC and use Notepad... you can easily Alt-TAB if someone walks in and hide it behind something else you have open... and you keep it for your eyes only. Good practice for typing too!

Best wishes to all.