i am barely on lesson 2 i was doing so good for the week and yesterday me and my husband were making love i was all in the moment then the alarm clock comes on so i left it on. listening to some music. then the news came on heard a story of a wife shooting her husband in precise well off neighborhood. then i just stopped my husband asked whats wrong then there went the what if thinking. is like i can be fine for one minute then if i hear something disturbing about killing, for not apparent reason. it just stirs things up again. then i went to a new pysichatrist that same day and her office was in a hospital for mental disorders. i just started what if'ing then the panic attacks started it brought back memories when i put myself in an institution for 1 day because i had no idea what was wrong with me. after in there i realized i was not like them i was not that severe but just the thoughts of my past attacks started starts the panic attacks all over again. has any one felt like a roller coaster one day your fine then another day it is like you have to start all over again. then you start to feel sorry for your self and just like giving up.

hey there- i know how you feel. I still have this problem, however you can calm yourself down bigtime! In Lesson 3, one of the guys said something that meant SO much to me. He said "sometimes I just close my eyes and just tell myself 'this will go away... it always does.'" and hes right! when you have these problems go through those 6 steps... you must understand that your fear is causing these, and when you get those 6 steps down, the fear subsides and then you kinda just laugh when those scary thoughts come. Just remember IT ALWAYS GOES AWAY! Float through them, take a step back and just let it get ya... youll find its not that bad, and you will laugh at it! I still have anxious/depressed episodes but its been 3-4 months since my last panic attack, and when i start that panicky feeling i just know that it can only get so bad, and it will go away. Good luck!!!