hi, all, in the past week my grandmother was put in te hospital, then transvered to icu! Im having a really hard time right now, im having all these bad thoughts, my parents told me that shes not gettin any better. Im afraid that im not gonna be able to live my life w/o her! i feel like i cant go on! i feel like i have no one who understands what im goin thru! and it scares me!i say that i would do somethin to myself, but i know that i got too many people who love me! but i just ogtta no that im gonna be ok and im gonna get thru this!
Posts: 16 | Location: Hodge,La | Registered: July 19, 2004
Hello there, I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time right now. Life is full of ups & downs, sometimes things are going to go better than other times, just remember, you are NOT alone in this & there are many people that DO understand exactly what you are going through! Hang in there.. if you need to talk you can email me at jiji1173@optonline.net.
up until the age of 12, my grandmother basically raised me while my parents worked during the day. I was very close to her. Then, a couple of years ago, she was put in the hospital for liver cancer, or something of that sort. She died before i could say goodbye. I think that a lot of the anxiety i suffered from was due to separation, so i understand wat ur going through. Just be there for ur grandmother now, its the only thing u can do. Don't worry about the future or the past, because no matter what happens, u will be ok.
thank you, all, for your support and advice! i will be sure to keep you all posted,on her condition. Im 15, i know that yall are probably older than me, and i know that i dont have much experience w/ the anxiety and depression, but if ya`ll also need someone to talk to at any time, my email is tweety_9125@yahoo.com. thanks
Posts: 16 | Location: Hodge,La | Registered: July 19, 2004
hey whats up...i just wanted to know if u wanted to talk sometime cuz i think ur the only one on this site thats my age...and i think it would be cool to talk to someone my age about anxiety ...anyway if ur up for it write back..ttyl
hey,how r u , i think its really cool that were the same age, but it sux that were having the anxiety n depression thing. my email is hot_drummer_chik_2003@yahoo.com
Posts: 16 | Location: Hodge,La | Registered: July 19, 2004
Hey There, I hope this finds you feeling better and grandma doing better too. I started having bad anxiety about 5 years ago...about a month after having panic attacks, we found out that cancer had returned to my moms body....needless to say this was a lot to deal with and the panic got worse. I was obsessed and freaked out all the time about what could happen to her, if I was gonna loser her what would I do...would I survive without her. I even told her that if anything happend to her that I was gonna kill myself. Well, about 3 years later, my beautiful mother left this life and you know what?...everything that I had anticipated....worried about...visualized (I pictured, imagined, that if she died, I was just gonna "LOSE IT"...freak out....hate everyone....scream...break down...etc..) but that's not how it happened...I was afraid that I wasn't going to be okay, to be able to handle it..but I did...I survived that terrible, sad time. And to be honest with you...I was SOOO much stronger than I had ever imagined I would have been...I belive that she gave me some of her strength and power when sheh left. Anyway, at a time like this it can be hard to be positive, to look on the bright side...I guess what helped me was to think..."what would my mom want?" My positive thoughts are with you and yours at this time...~*~Blessings~*~ Feel free to email me if you need to talk... JTLSharfin3@hotmail.com
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