My insurance company is insisting we use their pharmacy instead of our local pharmacies. So in keeping with compliance to the new policy I mailed the prescriptions I received from my psychiatrist. Some how between me mailing the “scripts” to them, it arriving to them via the postal service, them filling the scripts, and mailing it back to me took close to 2 and a half weeks. This put me in a very bad situation since 3 of the 5 meds I take are controlled substances. I suffer from clinical depression and I have suicidal tendencies. During this lapse of no medication not only did I go through withdrawals (my doctor was on vacation) I also suffered what I believe to be my first anxiety attack; (although there were probably more I didn’t know). I even know the trigger of the attack. It was my boss.
The only reason I am boring you with this story is I never had an attack on the job before; the trigger was there all this time. This brings me to a very big question: are the medications I’m taking effecting my ability to recognize that I am having some kind of attack but don’t know I’m having one, therefore preventing me to deal with it (exp. relaxation techniques, deep breathing, accepting, inner dialoguing and distraction. Or am I going to subconsciously let these triggers and feelings fester under the radar without knowing that there are problems and what the problems are?
Peace,
David Johnson