I'm in my third week of the program and so far its helping me sort things out a little. But I cant help this strange new feeling I'm having with my setback. I'm posting it too make sure I'm not loosing it and that it is common with this condition.

For one, every time I have a setback, it always feel like its new sensations I'm feeling. Nothing physical anymore, just all emotional and mental. I feel like I'm getting dumb or loosing my sharpness. Let alone my memory is starting to fail me. I dont know if I'm depressed or not. This week homework assignment is I have to write down my negative thoughts, sometimes I strive just to figure out want I'm thinking at the moment. I still have scary thoughts, but I cant tell the difference between whether or not I believe thought or not. I hope I'm not confusing anybody. Its really hard to describe what I'm going through, let alone I dont really know how I feel or what I'm going through. Thats what makes it so hard.

I hope this is somewhat clear, if not I will elaborate a little later......

If you can relate please drop a post.

SaSa

I can relate to your feelings. I think people with our disorder are so in tune with our body symptoms and sensitive that we sometimes are unable to stop and think about other things because we're constantly thinking about how we are feeling. It's just part of this disorder. Sometimes it seems like we get rid of one sympton but then take on another one.

Hopefully this will change through this program.

Hi SaSa

Don't be discouraged...what you describe makes sense to me because I have been there and still am at times...I am going through the program a second time hopefully in a more detailed way...the first time it scared me in the sense that I wondered how I could be so messed up? That causes the confusion and wierd feelings. It really is not a big deal...it is just a matter of WORKING at the life skills that ARE the program! Hang in there!