I was doing better.

I don't want to turn people away.
I need a little TLC I guess.
My endless stressful events are wearing me down

Add to this my lack of sleep due mostly to my daughters sleep problems, and I stay up working on my lessons or zoning on the web to distract my self or to search for ways to improve myself.

I need to budget my time and get motivated. I'm on lesson 4 and I still haven�t stopped my coffee, bad eatting habits and my exercise is not up were it should be.

I can't wake up or clean much I'm so behind. I have some great info on cleaning from flylady. com "great site" I just can't get my energy up to apply much.
TO MAKE IT HARDER my son is in even more trouble again so I took a pill to relax yesterday and I'm still feeling the effects.

I have some great spiritual books that I just got on line just can get to reading much. I will I will Iwill get it together really.
Just in another slump.

I do know I need to keep going maybe this Saturday my husband can let me sleep in I'll let him know now I have to have it WISH IT WAS TODAY....
MY husband is helping tonite he will watch our daugher so I can go to my first ALANON meeting people say this meeting might help me deal with my feeings that I have with my sons drug probles?

I will need to pracrice lesson 2 tonite I get nervious going some place new like this OR maybe is it excitement as they say on the tapes I don't know?

Well I have to go and pick my girl up so thats all my venting for now thanks to anyone who listened I will go take a shower and try to wake up. GOD BLESS

Frosty, dont ecpect it to happen over nite. You have alot going on. take a breath & let hubby help while u take care of u!!! Remember nothings ever as bad as we think it will be. Get some rest & tomorrow will be lots better. will keep your son in my prayers. Take care.

Thank you thelma,

I did it!!!

I had My husband watch out little girl.

I started to feel guilty because he didn't get much time to rest when came home and I almost backed out of my meeting, then she starting crying,
HOWEVER I pulled my thoughts together and said to my husband and my self I need this.

I got a little organized and made some surprises for my husband to use on our daughter.

At one point I thought o know he is going to call during my meeting than I said to my self I going to finish this meeting everything will be ok at home
and even came back home and told my husband I'm going to do it again next week and it won�t kill him he can handle it and it will get easyer.

GOOD FOR ME RIGHT
and I'm only on lesson 4 sounds like the lesson on being more assertive LOL.

And for more good news
I started to get anxious during the meeting so I started practicing my breathing and present here and now thoughs and worked on the flow well I made it and I'm proud and it went pretty good.