I wanted to get some other opinions on this. This being my brief therapists "homework" for the week. I went to this therapist looking for a new approach...boy did I find it! He started off by saying, "Let's imagine that you are sleeping and in the middle of the night a miracle occurs...When you wake up all of your problems are gone...describe to me what changes others would see about you and describe them as if I was watching a video tape of you." Well the first problem with this is that I don't get much sleep and if I do it is not restful. I had a very hard time describing anything to him...but I managed to blunder my way through enough to satisfy him by saying things like...maybe I would smile more, maybe I would look forward to waking up and think that this was a fresh slate. His assignment to me was each night before going to bed flip a coin. If the coin lands on heads you start your day as if that miracle occurred...if it lands on tails you live your life as it has been always. Me being anxious for this new approach agreed to give it an honest try. Of course that night I flipped a coin and it landed on heads. I was immediately frightened of this result and I did not sleep well. Meanwhile...that night my youngest daughter had lost a tooth and truly lost it on the floor...we were unable to find it and she was really really upset. I bet her a dollar that the toothfairy would know and come anyway. The next day I woke up and panicked instantly as I realized that I had forgotten to play toothfairy(That is my spaciness lately) and she was already awake and upset about it. I paid her a dollar. Needless to say the rest of my day was horrible. So much for that try. The next time that I flipped the coin and got heads was two nights later. I thought that I would try again. I had a feeling that this therapist was wanting too much too soon...he had no knowledge of my symptoms, my past etc...he just assumed that he could solve my problems with this approach. I woke up and lived my normal day...I couldn't do anymore that anyone could visibly see. I am doing everything possible to appear normal and happy even though I am falling apart inside. It is the inside that needs work not the outside. Please let me know what you think about this approach. Thanks ~Flutterby

I have the program. I am on the first week. I have the mind set that this program will work for me. I have combined therapy with this and I think that may be what is blocking my road. Too much therapy all at once but I have to get support from someone face to face somehow. My husband has been pushed away by me for so long that he doesn't even try anymore. I am used to being alone on things as that it the way it has been for my whole life but I am really feeling the worst that I ever have right now. Eleven years ago I was this bad but I had no kids then. Now I do and I believe that you lead them by example. Right now I am doing my best to maintain normalcy and happiness for them and for me. My therapist told me today that maybe my outside needs to slow down to meet my inside. I told him that if I allowed that to happen I would not be functional at all. I would be in my house in a dark corner by myself all of the time. Anyway....~Flutterby