Ok this is hard for me to talk about...does anyone have a problem going to the bathroom in a public bathroom ( ya know feel like you have to hurry up)? I also have a problem that if I am going to leave the house for a prolonged period of time I have to wear a Depends ( adult diaper) and two pads( ya know the overnight Kotexs ones). I just feel like I am going to urinate when I don't want to. I just feel like I have no control..but when I wear those two things I don't seem to have a problem. I am also worried that I will not make it to the bathroom when I feel that familiar gassy feeling ya get..you all know what I mean I am sure. These are the reasons that I tell myself I wear them. Does anyone else do this??? Does this make sense to anyone??? I just feel like a totaly freak!! Like I am verting back to being a baby or something.

I suffer from Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder, Panic Attacks, Aggoraphobia..and I think I have developed OCD.

I have had these things for about 6 years technacly but I think I have had them since I was in my early teens.

Please someone tell me I am not a freak! Please tell me I am not the only one that feels this way!!

Well, I don't think you're nuts. The Depends and all probably just makes you feel more confident that nothing will happen to embarrass you. I'm known for holding my urine all day. I don't like public bathrooms, and if I'm busy, I can keep it from my mind. I know it isn't good for my bladder so I've been trying to stop it. I do fine if I have found a public restroom that I can feel comfortable in. The one at work is OK and there's one near my office at school that is usually clean and the stalls are large. I guess are problems are at the other end of the spectrum but related. It will probably get better as you progress through the program. Good luck.

Thank you! It is good to hear that you don't think I am nuts. It is nice that you understand. I am around a lot of my family that just can't understand it. This place makes me feel better cuz you all can relate. Thank you again!