I've revealed a of lot my inner most thoughts and feelings on the forums, I have to admit one more--I am the BIGGEST Def Leppard fan haha. I had tickets to the Def Leppard/Journey concert last night and was very nervous about going. Big crowds, the heat and humidity, being trapped and squished into a long row of screaming fans. I thought it'd be more than I could bear, but I was wrong. I made it through that concert and more than that, when Def Leppard was playing my mind was so fixated on them I totally rocked out and before I knew it, I was having a good time. Of course there were those negative thoughts sneaking in once in a while, but I never panicked. It was a really good experience for me to have. I realize more everyday just how much my thoughts are what holds me back. When my mind is totally engaged in something, I am myself again, it's only when I have time to think is when things get bad. Unfortunately, I have a lot of time to think, haha. It's hard to keep yourself distracted 24/7, but it's nice to know that it can be done sometimes and the more I have these positive experiences I think the easier it will be for me to let go of this someday. It's amazing just how close I always come to not going to these events because of my fear and fear of my body symptoms. I truly believe in this quote, "our recovery lies in the places we fear". It's true. It's just hard to always have the courage to step out into that lions den and see what happens. I'm finding though, it can be worth the risk. Every time I put myself on the line and jump off that bridge and see that I dont always panic, the closer I feel I'm coming to seeing an end to all of this. I;m going to spend the rest of my day basking in my Def Leppard afterglow
"The difficulties do not continue forever, yet the value of making it through them will always be yours."
Posts: 367 | Location: Chicago burbs | Registered: April 16, 2006
Thats awesome! Good for you! Yah I like Def Leppard too! Its sounds like you have come a long way. And you are right we are so held back by our thoughts..thank you for saying that it helps to be reminded that. Have fun basking in the afterglow!
Posts: 94 | Location: Canada | Registered: January 17, 2006
I remember back in the 80's and 90's when I would go to concerts, it would be very hard to have a panic attack with all that dang marijuana smoke filling my brain.
I'd go in kinda nervous and worried, looking like this ...
.. but I'd usually come out of the concerts like this ...
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Posts: 201 | Location: Cologne, MN - 25 miles west of Minneapolis | Registered: June 02, 2006
That's so cool!!! I am happy to see that you are gaining some control back. Right on!! You got me singing "photograph" now and I can't remember the words. I'm making them up as I'm going alone! Tkae care.
Good for you! I still have my union jack shirt from their Pyromania tour!! Concerts are hard to get through, especially if you're down on the floor with the crowd and it gets hot and claustrophobic but it's GREAT that you tried it and did it! Look, if you can do that then you can do anything, right? Rock on!
Tkae care.