This is my first post to these forums, my name is Brian I'm 42 years old and recently - about 2.5 months back I came to the realization that something was wrong with my life what I could not exactly pinpoint but I knew I had to do something about it. I always thought I had depression and have been on Paxil for the past 13 years. The Paxil helps but every winter I go into what I would call a funk during this time I would be perpetually anxious and generally miserable and angry. Back in January I set out to figure out what was wrong with me and luckily came upon this site. I purchased 'the program' and currently I am on Session 11. This program has been a godsend for me every day I learn a little more about myself and the things that make me feel bad, ugly, and anxious and try very hard to make the changes and they have been helping a great deal. For me there is no turning back I LOVE the relaxed feeling that I get when I workout and do the relaxation tape it is truly priceless. Anyway today while working out listening to Metallica Master of Puppets was playing and as I listened I changed the lyrics to be reflective my view of this whole anxiety experience and how I now feel. I replayed the song a few times and sang my version of the lyrics and it made me feel awesome my thoughts were crystal clear afterward so I thought I'd share my version of the song for the heavy metal fans in the group. There is hope, there is happiness, I wish everyone success!

End of passion play, crumbling away
Anxiety was my source of self-destruction
My mind that pumps with irrational fear, sucking darkest clear
Leading on my minds deaths construction

Taste it I did see
Negative self talk is all I heeded
I was unconsciously dedicated to
How it was draining me

Come crawling faster
I Obeyed my anxiety master
My life burned faster
I had no tools and obeyed my anxiety master
Master

Master of puppets were pulling my strings
Twisting my mind and smashing my dreams
Blinded by it, I couldn’t see a thing
Just call its name, `cause it will enjoy you scream
Master
Master
Just call its name, `cause It’ll enjoy you scream
Master
Master


Needlework the way, never did I betray
Until I heard the way
I could slay my anxiety master
By restructuring my minds eye


Master, master, where’s the dreams that I’ve been after?
Master, master, I figured out you only filled my head with lies
Laughter, laughter, now all I hear and see is happy laughter
Laughter, laughter, laughing at your demise

Anxiety hell is not worth all that, its not a natural habitat
It’s just a rhyme without a reason
Never ending maze, drift on numbered days
Now my life is in season


Brian

COOL LYRICS BRIAN! And WELCOME TO THE SITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW! Talk about the perfect lyrices for anxiety....

Welcome!

Patricia

thanks ladies i really appreciate it!!