I finally got over my fear of being chastised for being a bad parent and got the kids medical insurance in order, found the doctors, made the doctor and dentist appointments, and took them...ALL BY MYSELF!!! Which is huge for me. A month ago I would not have gone to the grocery store by myself with one of the kids, much less all three of them.
I was able to stand in the peds office and feel confident about being thier parent for once. For the first time in 10 years I feel like I can actually "do this" without someone else's help. DH hardly knows what to think, without me getting upset that I haven't done something, and then making him do it because it has to be done and I am too afraid to do something as simple as order a pizza, much less go to a doctor appointment where I could be criticized. Heck, I even let the Dr. know that I am dealing with anxiety, which is a huge step. After all, I am supposed to be a perfect parent, right, lol!
Good for you!!! Taking care of our children is the most important thing. I have trouble with this also. Grocery stores are a big limitation for me. For some reason, I don't have trouble taking my kids to the doctor, but I have put off taking them to the dentist. I need some dental work myself.
Doesn't it feel good to take charge and get things done when they need to be done? Keep it up! Way to go!!
With all the steps you took and with every thing that was involved...seems to me you could have broken this out into 4 or 5 separate triumphs...in fact, it would probably be very healthy for us all to think of our triumphs in this way. There is so much we do leading up to, during, and after them that makes us feel so positive and capable. Good for you and way to go!
You might think about jotting down a few notes about this on an index card or something, and put it in your purse...so you have a ready and quick reminder of the inner confidence you do have...a reminder of what you can do when you set your mind to it and support that confidence...how positive it feels. Just a thought.
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