this has been a week of introspective, awakenings, I was so dissapointed on Monday, when I got so sick I thought it ruined my week of freedom while my husband was on the mountain.

God is so good! he layed me beside the still watters and even though my head was comeing unglued. He gave me such insight and so much to sare, I am in aw over what came of this week I didn't recognize as a Good week with from the Lord. I am feeling so much stronger now, I think If the sheriff had called to tell me my husband would not be comeing home alive. I would be OK, not like the old days when I feared my future as a widdow, nearly every day. I now feel safe and secure what ever comes tomarrow, there are no guarantees. and with my husband gone, I have had the time to double check what I wrote, and it is comeing out a little clearer, even if my spelling is so bad. I do wish there was a spell checker on here, sometimes, but I am not as asshamed of my inabillities, any more either Instine never learned to spell, and he never rememberd his telephone number.

I am so thankfull for Lucinda and her insight, that has helped me recover from the wounds in my life. I could never thank her enough.

Sounds like you are having some epihanies about how strong you are! My week is starting off bad, you know, PMS and I felt bad this morning and talked to the Lord on the way to work and I had a great day. I only work two days a week but the anxiety along with the PMS can physically and mentally drain you. I even said aloud, "Thank You Jesus" no matter who heard I was just glad I got through the day without feeling PMS'y. I know that is not a word but we know what it means :-)
You are so right God is good and he gives you what you can handle and helps us with those a-ha moments. I used to take the feelings on peace and inner calm as a sign something bad is going to happen but I realized that is not the case and now I go with the good feelings and praise him wherever I am.
You said you could never thank Lucinda enough, she just gave us the tools it is YOU who helped you recover.
Have a great day!

I have traided my PMS in for hot flashes, I don't recomend it, it is just another season in life. You realy need your rest, it is so important to your happyness.

Kumiko; go with the good feelings and praise him wherever I am.

that is what positive thinking is all about becomeing at ease with life, weather on the mountain top or in the valy of death. I will FEAR no evil.... for thow art with me. so simple like Cory Tanboon says you can sume up Christianity in one word; KISS (keep it simple stupid) Jesus did all the hard work, we only need to believe, but our ego gets in the way, and we have often been led astray into believeing we need to do more, saten likes that, keeps us busy so we don't have time to Prase the Lord.

I love it "I say thank you Jesus", too, it calmes me right fast.

I have tried so many things over the past 25 years, when Lucinda gave me these tools every other thing I had learned made sence to me, and fell in to place her corse was the glue tht put my puzel toget, it still is, I get to thinking I must be cured, then something else comes up, and I have another growth spurt, but it keeps getting better with evry epifanie, I grow, and as my favorite motivational speaker for the Lord Joyce Meyer, says "higher level, bigger devil"

Kumiko; "I used to take the feelings on peace and inner calm as a sign something bad is going to happen"

I would change that bad to BIG, I believe God gets us ready for the next big thing, He doesn't give us more than we can do, so to do what we need to do He has to equip us to do it. like David God equiped him to slay Goliath, in the wilderness, with his sling shot. He could't use the Kings armor, he had to use what God had equiped him with all his life.

I am getting excited to see what is comeing next when I start feeling that peace and iner calm, and I believe God wants us to keep our peace, through the tests, and trials, because the battle is His says the Lord, we must only belive! eaiser said than done, but getting eaiser every time I overcome another thing that is holding be back from my appointed task. To love my neighbor as myself. The first thing I have to do is love me, enough to accept God's gifts, so my cup will over flow on my neighbor. I used to think if I can only love my neighbor as much as I love me. my neighbor is in troble, because I didn't even like me that much. I had let the wold mold me, now God is molding me back to what he had in mind all along. and the shacles are comeing off, I am lifted up with the eagles. and I love it up here.

I pray your day will have a silver lining. get your rest, eat nutrious food. and keep "going with the good feelings and praise Him whereever you are"

Thanks for posting your Good News