I was having a tailgate party by myself last night. My neighbor who assaulted me on 7-12 wanted to talk to me. We both suffer from PTSD. He is a Vietnam Vet and I married 2 men that like to treat women like dogs. I had many people praying yesterday for healing for my neighborhood. I charged him with assault because no man mistreats me anymore-my days of being the doormat are over. He charged me with 2 counts of trespassing and 1 count of assault. All I did was cook him breakfast and clean his house. We had a long talk and decided that we do not want to pursue this in court. My brother and sister had the police come into my home yesterday and haul me to mental health crisis. I am taking care of my mental problems. I resisted arrest-needless to say I am battered and bruised. I also have many praying that my family understands how it is to have bipolar disorder. I went to Montana a week ago to spend time with a man that I have loved for 12 years. I had a major meltdown there when I realized that I was sexually abused as a child by my father's best friend. Montana was awesome. We went to the Rocky Mountains. I know where my heart belongs. What a long strange trip it's been-my life that is. I just want to love and take care of people in my life. My main motivation is to get custody of my son back. Alchohol and depression suck.6 years of agoraphobia and manic depression suck. I thank MWC for the wake up call. I thank God for finally getting me on the right path. Nothing is impossible. I also have many people praying that my dream of 12 years will come to fruition. I'm glad that the feud with the neighbor is over. I pray that my former fiance can forgive me because I know where my heart really lies. Many people have had their hearts broken and that is not my intent. I would not be alive today if he hadn't taken care of me, my pets and plants for 6 years. I intend to add him as a co-owner of my home here. He is a decent man. Hopefully I will be talking to everyone from Montana by years end. I have a wonderful man there, 2 of his children, 1 grandson and 1 on the way. I'll just be bicoastal because my roots are in Virginia and so is my family. Thank you God!

Hi Jennafromva,
I am so sorry to hear about all your pain and suffering. What happened to you as a child is despicable; I can only hope that you placed yourself in therapy so you could try to understand that it wasn't your fault. You seem to be on the road to recovery and for that I am grateful. I know that you've faced some pretty hard times, but I can also see that you have not been defeated. Please give yourself a lot of credit for being able to pick yourself up and move yourself forward. I hope that your wishes are fulfilled concerning the man in Montana and that you find peace and happiness in the future. God Bless! Ellen

Jenna, I am so glad you're on your road to recovery, that you have praying people and that you're grateful for MWC. Keep working the program and you will become a new person. I too am bi-polar and yes, it sucks. We gotta realize there will be bad days but we no longer need to stay stuck in them. Keep us posted how things are going with you. What lesson are you on?