Hey guys, Im really proud of myself because I finnaly went to my speech pathologist appointment and am starting speech therapy for my voice. This was one thing that set off a MAJOR bout of anxiet/depression because..iv'e had voice problems for years but I've just become used to them....like a comfort zone and the thought of sounding different set off a what-if train wreck..."what if i can't handle the feeling of having a different voice?, how will others react?...how will my family react?....what if i go crazy?". But I realized my secondary gain is staying in a "safe place"...I catastrophized that the 1st app would be terrifyingly emotional and horrible of course........and of course IT WASN'T LOL.

anyone out there...don't be afriad to fly and face your fears...it's scary but you'll be so much stronger for it...I know I will as I continue my journey.

Hello,

Isn't it amazing how we can psych ourselves up so negatively about something! I would always dread things and like you would come up with thousands of reasons not to move ahead! Of course, it always turned out fine! You should be very proud of taking this big step! Congratulations!

~Bridget

Hi ChangingTimes!
CONGRATULATIONS on such wonderful progress. I liked how you described it as a "what-if" train wreck. It definitely feels like that and I felt that way earlier this week. i think working through it and challenging yourself as you have done is the only way to get better. thanks for the post. it has inspired me to think about my own "what-if" thinking. congrats again!!!