Hello Everyone. My name is Amber. I just started the program and just finished Day 1 yesturday and starting Day 2 of Session 1. Just listening to Lucienda's emails and cds make me feel better. I love the relaxation tape and use it daily and also fall asleep to it. I have had Severe Panic/Anxiety attacks since I was 16 yrs. I went to hospitals daily because I thought I was dying. I would call the ambulence and my parents didn't know what to do. My doctor had prescribed me with paxil and said that I have a panic disorder. I couldn't leave the house, or be left alone AT ALL. My mom had to sleep in my bedroom, I wouldn't let her leave my sight, I was spacy, weak and had numerous panic attacks daily. I started to get better with meds and seeing a phsycologist. After I turned 18 I stopped going to the phsycologist because we didn't have insurance anymore. I continued the meds at a health clinic. I since then was able to leave my mom and go hang out with friends and my boyfriend who were very supportive. The panic attacks were less and less and stopped. Then 4 years after taking Paxil I started feeling Panic one day and had a horrible attack, then from there was sick all over again, my family and boyfriend were really supportive. I was then taken off Paxil and put on Zolft. I had all the same symptoms as before with not wanting to be alone ever, and not wanting to leave the house, but after 3 years, now I am living on my own with the same boyfriend who has stuck by me and I been working. Now in the last 3 weeks I started to get panicky and had panic attacks... I went to my doctor and just cried because I was doing great, I live on my own, work and am about to start school. I thought why is this happening.... I cried and told the Dr. that I hate taking meds and was hopeing to get off of them. I felt sick, panic attacks all through out the day, waking up at night with them, I couldn't work and was scared. The Dr. switched my meds to Cymbolta and I also Take Hydroxyz. I'm on week 2 of Cymbolta and feel a lot better. I didn't have a full relapse because I'm able to stay alone. do things on my own. But when I just started feeling sick I remembered someone telling me about this program 5 years ago! I told my boyfriend that this program has got to work! It's my last option! Just listening to the first video I felt some releif listening to other people that have the same feelings and fear and that I wasn't the only one. My mom, sisters, brothers, dad, grandma, and great grandma, all have some anxiety and depression, but don't have to take anything for there's because it's not severe like mine so they understand only up to a certain point. I'm praying that this program will help me.
The Lord will get me through this <3
Posts: 14 | Location: Florida | Registered: October 11, 2008
Welcome to the board, Amber! You are definitely in the right place! Sometimes we feel so completely all alone with this problem, and we think that somehow we are worse off than everybody else. But remember that this program has helped THOUSANDS completely recover. Put your faith in the program, and remember that it's OK to feel some anxiety when learning new ways to think and behave. Most importantly, you have a family on this board, and we're all rooting for you to completely recover! Good luck with the program, and always feel free to contact me (I just recently started and am currently on Session 3). Take care,
Amber, I can relate. The way I see it is that you are so fortunate to be so young and be addressing this disorder in your life. Its horrible how it has impacted your life so far but if you can get healing with this program you will have the rest of your life to live, really live. I have not had insurance so I get my meds from a state facility. We are survivors, that s for sure. Take care, Susie
Posts: 32 | Location: New Orleans | Registered: October 05, 2008
amber, I hope that since you have been in the program for awhile that you are feeling better.sometimes the dr. has to change our meds.some work for others and do not work for us.some get off meds while others like me because of a chemical imbalance need them.but in the end it is all good.know that with the program and the tools you receive you can go on your own journey.I wish you the best of luck. you can make it and I and others will be there for you.take care and be blessed in all that you do. don I can't do it but HE can make it work.
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